Ahhh Well, its Saturday, and guess what, I'm back at work!! yay! (sarcasm) If I had it my way I'd be playing PS2 or sleeping right now, but oh well... it's another day and theres less than a week left until my birthday YAY!!!! so anyways, my girlfriend has agreed, as my b-day gift to pay for me to get a tattoo... so... We're going to the shop today, to possibly get it done, I gotta see if they have an artist available to do the work, and how much its going to cost and all... so I'm psyched, I'm getting the Psychopathic Records hatchet man, on the inside of my right leg, like on the calf area, but the left side of the right leg, if that makes sense... and im getting the star on my back touched up and getting a glow around it... It's gonna be dope, we're going to Ink Inc. in poughkeepsie... they are awsome, they did some of my g/f's tatts so I trust em... lol lol... they do great work.... so anyways what else is new, ohh yeah so thursday was nice I had the day off, and I went out to dinner with my parents, and my g/f and My parents are slowly but surely beginning the moving process, they are looking into having a house built and stuff, they are planning to move to Florida, I wish I could go but I have my g/f and I have a good job now so that means my options are left to staying here, unless we break up... so that means me moving, to an apartment... I guess in a way it will be good... if I move to an apartment, it will mean closure for me in certain senses. I can really begin to cut off all ties with the "Friends" who have done the same to me... so when they come to look for me, when they need me, I will do what they did to me, (not be there for them, when they need me the most) it's harsh but thats life... so, I'm going to begin looking for a new place to go, my rents already told me I can have a lot of the furniture because when they move they are buying new stuff, they're lucky, nice move to florida, nice house with a pool, and warm sunshine, while im stuck up here, in frozen hell! I hope once my g/f gets done with school she will sense up and maybe want to move away from this shit, but who knows... shes like "oh I cant leave my mom, she doesnt have my father since he walked out on us" but shes sitting there telling me to practically leave my parents flat out... I dont get her sometimes... hypocrit... In the long run, i dont know if we will make it... I think I will go nutz living in the same house with her after 2 months.... but we'll have to see... anyways... what else is new, friday my g/f slept over, we didnt do much, I took my mom into work, cuz the weather was bad, and her car cant handle it, and I got free lunch out of it, then i came home, and shoveled the snow in the driveway... the snow weighed like 10times more than normally cuz all the rain that fell was turning it into slush... it sucked, yesterday was a mess, but it was good in a sense cuz it got a lot of the salt off of my car... that was nice at least lol, today its supposed to be in the fourties, so the weathers getting a lil warmer, ohhh how i cant wait until spring!!! then this friday is my birthday! YAY!!!! im so happy! lol... I cant wait I'm gonna get a lil tipsy, but not too much, I got work the next day... ohhh yeah I almost forgot to mention, thursday I got an email from an old co-worker at Raymour, he was asking me how I was doing this and that, and asked me if i could look at his computer, I told him yeah, and we'll set something up for tuesday after work... so that'll be a lil extra BEER Money! lol today is just dragging on... I really havent been on aol lately, been busy with SOCOM 2... lol, trying to find some members for my team... lol hrmm what else is new, ahh I havent Talked to Brynne, since like 2 weeks ago... I'm slowly but surely getting over her... it hurts though still, I guess one of us will realize one day we made a mistake... im getting over it slowwwly though. There still really isnt a day that goes by that i dont think about her though... I really miss her as hard as I try and be mad at her I cant, shes still the most perfect thing in my heart... It's not the first time ive been hurt though... so whattaya gonna do... gotta take the good with the bad, and pray for the best... Ohhh the things I dont tell anyone  are what makes all the difference, I think if I get Tatt'd today, it will be a nice release, to release all that pain it will feel like a load lifting off of me, I guess thats my reasons behind the cutting incidents when I was in HS... im far over it, but still i understand myself more... I really should stop by my old HS and see Mr. Hanrahan, Mr. Hanrahan was the man who really pulled me up from my lowest points, and he's honestly the only one I ever really was able to talk to, I honestly think if he wasnt here I would have ended my life a long time ago, I owe him a lot, hes a true mentor, and friend... I still stop by and see him every now and again, to touch base, and just chat, he's so nice, he's always got some insightful things to say, maybe this week I'll stop by if im not too busy! =) well... I think I should get going, I'll write more later if there isn't too much to day Adios!
        
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