My ProFiLe!


Name: Matt
Location: Beacon/Poughkeepsie, NY
Occupation: Information Technologies/LAN Administration.
DOB: 2/13/83(Finally 21)
Sex: Male
Languages: English, Some Spanish, and Pourtugese.
Todays Mood: Mildly Tired, happy.
CD of the day: Sum 41 - Does this Look infected?
Tattoos: 2
Peircings: 2 (1 for each ear)
Hair Color: Dark Brown (practically Black)
Eyes: Brown
Weight: 165
Height: 5'10
Marital Status: Taken =0
Facial hair: Goatee
Glasses: Yes - emo StyLe (Black Framed)
Clothing: Polo Jeans, T-shirt, Black Element hat. Sneakers, Fleece pullover
Drinking: Dasani Water.
Car: '02 Ford Focus ZX5


   

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Mar 12, 2004
Super Dooper Gary Cooper

So, It's been about 6 days since I've last blogged... I've been so busy, like seriously busy... My parents went down to florida, to look for a new house, to move into, but the last time i talked to them the search wasnt going to well, I guess that buys me more time, for 1 to buy a motorcycle, and 2 look for a place of my own. So... I've been dealing with all kinds of shit, cleaning, taking out the garbage, doing the laundry, (for everyone in my house) and worst of all cleaning up after my brother... my brother is a pig... the first night the kid made tuna fish, he left the tuna can that he knocked on the floor, on the floor still... he makes himself fuckin protein shakes, and he doesnt clean up his messes, and dont even get me started on his room... jeeezz... so, anyways, the night before my parents went to florida, we talked about the motorcycle, and it was kind of an argument, but it ended easy, and turned into a nice convo... so, I'm now sort of thinking about looking for a mobile home, as living in an apartment may be a lost cause... but anyways, my mom called me a few minutes before they left for Florida, and told me that when they got back home they'd help me look for a bike, which is really cool... So... I'm happy, plus, I paid my bills today, and I got a good amount of money in my bank acct. last night, I was supposed to go out with Tom, and the guys, but Toms sister went into labor, and that scratched that soo..... I guess I'm better off, so me and my brother went out to dinner last night, and then went back home, I went up stairs and played video games for a while and went back down stairs where i fell asleep on the recliner, I woke up this morning, with a decent amount of sleep... I was happy about that, lately I've been getting woken up around 4:00am to let the friggen dogs out and feed the cats and dogs and shit... so an extra 3 hours of sleep was nice, i guess the dogs slept late hehe... so anyways... the weather has been really crazy lately, between the snow and rain, and then warm weather, and cold weather, I dont know, I cant keep up with it.... Spring is only a few days away though.... Spring and warm weather make me happy.... I like spring for a few reasons... The weather is warm... Girls dress in belly shirts, and show more skin... I can roll the windows down in my car =) and the nights get longer, plus it means that im going to be going on Vacation soon... Im prolly going to lake george, but it may get changed, we may go to Jersey, or somewhere like that if that gets scrapped, I don't care I just wanna relax a lil bit... Todays been a pretty good day though, i went paid some bills and stuff, and sat and watched TV, I watched two good movies, I watched Charlotte Gray, which is about WW2 and Nazis and stuff, which is one of my interests, and then I watched MEN IN BLACK 2 Very Funny Movie!! I thought it was hilarious... So now, I'm watching 10 things I hate about u... this is a cute flick, with me having nothing to do, I am just sitting here, watching TV bored... bored bored... anyways what else... so much to talk about... ohhh yeah... I was looking for a t-shirt in my brothers dresser, and i moved over one of his shirts, and there was like a handful of condoms, out of the wrapper, and condom wrappers my jaw just dropped, I don't know if he used them or not... but I guess he's really doing "it" with his girlfriend, one thing that I'm not with mine... thats for sure... I guess im better off not getting any, cuz for one its just another distraction in my relationship... plus i really dont care whether or not im going to get any or not... umm... ohh yeah me and Brynne are beginning to talk again more and more... im also beginning to pop online more and more to look for her... I really enjoy talking to her... shes perfect in every which way possible... I'm so happy when i talk to her... and i still think truthfully she feels the same way... shes just reluctant cuz shes got a boyfriend... I want to dissappear for a couple days not tell anyone where im going or anything... and just go and see her, just to touch her for 5 minutes would be pure bliss... to kiss her, would be heaven, and to smell her skin, would make me cry with happiness, and truthfull i think it would be the same exact way for her too... Its just a matter of time, before my life takes an odd turn... and me and my G/f Break up... and .... the rest will be history and I will drive to TX. and elope with the girl of my dreams... ahahahaha just a matter of time... I love her sooooo dearly... she's all i think about, all i want... So anyways tommarow my parents will be home, then we will take about this bike, id like to go down to jersey and take a look at the bike and if the price is right i will buy it... anyways, tonight, i am going to wal-mart, and im picking up Schindlers List, that is one of the most amazing movies i've ever seen. I love that movie, the funny thing is, Brynne, loves it too... one more reason why i think we are honestly meant for each other... anyways, Time's ticken, and i gotta get runnin... I got to meet my g/f at 3:30 so we can go out and get some food, then I will come back here tonight and clean up the house a little more, so the house looks decent for my parents when they come home. It's back to work for me tommarow, whooopie I cant wait... Well gotta run... adios my friends its been fun!!

 Matt®

Lyrics for Today:
The Early November - I want to hear you sad.

These eyes They're strongly covered in disguise. They’re waiting on the real, time again. You’ll see That no one knows for sure. For all of this, I’m better off without you. Do you regret, so, your loneliness? This ride Is drifting slowly to the side. We’re swerving off the road, Going past the cones. That warns us from the start. For all of this, I’m better off without you. Do you regret,so, your loneliness? For all of this, I’m better off without you. Do you regret all your loneliness? (Background) Every day goes, every night goes, Every day goes, every night goes, Every day goes, every night. (Lead) On and on, We sing this song the entire day, That’s oh so long. Every night we sing this song for you. For all of this, I’m better off without you. Do you regret, so, your loneliness? For all of this, I’m better off without you. Do you regret, so, your loneliness?





Posted at 06:18 pm by FinDingEmo
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Mar 6, 2004
The Great Debate

So It's Saturday... And here I sit again at work, While I am here, I ponder the many things that make our Society Tick... So, I will Share some of my Opinions on current events in the world and what I think, Think of todays post as an Editorial...

LEt Em' Marry...

So all the Buzz on the news is all about the Gay Marriage Crap going on, I find it kinda cool that our area is getting some exposure (NEW PALTZ, NEW YORK) New Paltz is that little college town, where I went to get drunk last week, its such a nice quaint little town, so on the topic of gay marriage, why must our fricken Government whether its state or federal have a word in everything, as a Heterosexual male, with many gay friends, I don't see where in the constitution is says "All men are created equal"-Except for Homosexuals. It doesn't last time I checked... What happened with Seperating Church and state... we can keep religion out of our schools, but obviously we can't out of the oval office... We're all americans here for the most part, and we all want to be equal... in my opinion Jason West, is the exact equivalent to Martin Luther King in his day... West is now facing prosecution for doing something in which other say are "illegal" and so was Dr. King, both are fighting for Civil Rights, a man, and a man Married is just the same as a Man and Woman married in my opinion... although I think Marriage is about religion it is about much more considering, the fact that to have a working relationship it takes, love, honesty, and dedication... ITS THE SAME FUCKING THING AS A MAN AND A WOMAN ONLY IT IS BETWEEN A MAN AND MAN OR A WOMAN AND A WOMAN... ok... Next...

Our President...
    George W. Bush, has been in office for just about 4 years, and I think the world is trying to throw him under a bus for certain things I honestly dont feel he was responsible for... First, 9/11 and our Economy, When I was in High School one of my teachers Blatantly Told us, by this time in 3 years the Economy will be going through some downfalls, and he was right, the economy went into a recession, companies werent spending jobs were cutting back or outsourcing, Stocks were doing poorly, however I think the main reason behind all of it was because of the 9/11 Terror Attacks, the Attacks Crippled the economy, and that is exactly what the terrorists wanted, they do this because they dont want to see our nation do better they want to see us fail, and do terribly economically, I thgink by Bush taking us to war was a gift and a curse, cuz it took the maniacle Saddam Hussein out of power as well as gave the iraqis more freedom but now Our men are dieing and I think he should get them all out and let them fix it on their own...truthfully... but thats my thought on that...

Thats just a few thoughts on my mind, anyways Im about to head out im going crazzeee.... Im going to type out a letter to Chrystal, sayin what up, and all that good stuff see ya laterz!!!

MaTT®
EVERYTIME I POST I WILL **TRY** and post a new set of Lyrics for a band, usually punk, or EMO, but it depends on my mood... Enjoy!

Lyrics for today:

My Bloody Valentine - Good Charlotte

Oh, my love
Please don't cry
I'll wash my bloody hands and
We'll start a new life

I ripped out
His throat
And called you on the telephone
To take off
My disguise
Just in time to hear you cry
You mourn the death of your bloody valentine
The night he died
You mourn the death of your bloody valentine
One last time

Singin'...

Oh, my love
Please don't cry
I'll wash my bloody hands and
We'll start a new life
I don't know much at all
I don't know wrong from right
All I know is that I love you tonight

There was
Police and
Flashing lights
The rain came down so hard that night and the
Headlines read
A lover died
No tell-tale heart was left to find when you...

You mourn the death of your bloody valentine
The night he died
You mourn the death of your bloody valentine
One last time

Singin'...

Oh, my love
Please don't cry
I'll wash my bloody hands and
We'll start a new life
I don't know much at all
I don't know wrong from right
All I know is that I love you tonight

Tonight

He dropped you off, I followed him home
Then I, I stood outside his bedroom window
Standing over him, he begged me not to do
What I knew I had to do cause I'm so in love with you

Oh, my love
Please don't cry
I'll wash my bloody hands and
We'll start a new life
I don't know much at all
I don't know wrong from right
All I know is that I love you tonight
Tonight



Posted at 04:59 pm by FinDingEmo
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Mar 5, 2004
Tell All your friends!

Hey, whats up, not too much going on in my side of town, the past couple days have been slow, todays friday... its been raining on and off, I just stopped over at this lil restaurant and bar down the road and grabbed lunch... I was hungry... anyways, what else is new, nothing really, Chrystals back in NYC I miss her... I want to party with her again... its funny I've never really felt anything like this before, I've had friends I've cared about but I wanna hang out with her again... She's so much fun... I am going to write her later tonight I think, either when I get home or sometime today... Last night I went to wal-mart and picked up 3 DVD's 1st: DUMB and DUMBERER... (the second dumb and dumber), 2nd: Dude Where's my Car, and 3rd: South Park: Bigger Longer and Uncut, lol... I got em all really really cheap so i said what the hell, So we watched Dumb and Dumberer It was hilarious, Some dumb parts but aside from that it was funny as hell! lol Tonight, me and my G/F will prolly watch dude wheres my car and South Park.... Anyways... I am going to go play a lil SOCOM and maybe take a lil nap... before I have to get my G/F so she can get her car... Im outtie!! LatErz..
   Matt®

Posted at 03:34 pm by FinDingEmo
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Mar 3, 2004
THE MEST SHOW!!!!!!!

Puttin on the Ritz!


Well, It's been a couple days since I've last written here, been busy with work, and stuff, so I haven't had much time to spend Bloggin my days, anyways, the weathers getting warmer yesterday it was like 65 degrees it was awsome! Today it's going to be warm too  thank goodness spring is here... anyways, yesterday night after work I headed home, and got changed, and went up to Hyde Park, to pick up Chrystal for the MEST/Matchbook Romance show. haha we got there a lil late cuz I got semi-Lost... anyways I picked up Chrystal and she popped in this CD she entitled it "Puttin on the Ritz" LoL we listened to the song the whole ride there, and while driving Chrystal brought a small bottle of Smirnoff Raspberry Vodka, and Vanilla coke with her, so she was drinking that the way to the show, then when we parked I took a shot, and chased it with the coke, lol! we got in the club finally, and I bought her an Amaretto Sour, and Myself a Corona, then we headed up to the balcony to find a good view spot to watch the show... after a lil bit of Dynamite boys, finally Matchbook Romance Comes out!!! POUGHKEEPSIES OWN MATCHBOOK F'N ROMANCE!!! The First song they Open their set with was, "MY EYES BURN" (Yes thats why My Blog is called My Eyes Burn! I WAS GOING NUCKING FUTS!!! LOL Singing every Lyric, so finally by the end of their set, the crowd wanted more, So they gave us 1 more song! Matchbook Rocked the House, most of the people just went to see Matchbook, cuz they are such a well known band in the EMO world, plus they are from Poughkeepsie! So After Matchbook got over, Fallout Boy Played, they rocked too, but finally MEST... MEST PUT ON AN AMAZING SHOW!! Apparently they are doing a world tour (DON't get your hopes down yet Klara, they may come to philipinnes) MEST Played a real long set, Rocking the house through each song, the lead Singers younger Brother even played the last song with them, kids were jumping on stage singing with them and everything, Chrystal was having a blast, from the beginning to the end Chrystal had about 5 or 6 drinks and by the end of the show she was plastered! lol she's so much fun, So we went out to the car, and she began dancing and stuff, so we waited in the parking lot for like a half hour for her friend Amanda to show up, Amanda was going to give her a ride home from the chance, while waiting she was talking with some guys in the car next to us, they kinda freaked me out a lil bit wit the things they were saying to her, cuz she was very drunk and wild, and they said some suggestive things to her, that made me feel uncomfortable, cuz it was about 5 guys against 1 it wouldnt be a fair fight! LoL, but they were cool and ended up taking off, finally Amanda showed up and picked Chrystal up, and We went our seperate ways however, I forgot I had Chrystals ID on me so she called me and I had to go back and meet her and give her back her ID LOL!! Crazy-ness so finally I got home and called my G/F she was tired and so was I so we talked for a lil while then I went took a shower and crashed! I was so tired! LoL Today has been pretty well I mean heck its my friday so I can't complain too much! Works going well... I left my wallet at home, so now when i get out of here I gotta run and grab my wallet... Ohh yeah what else is new... I heard from Shannon, She's doing well, baby and all... It's nice to hear from her every now and again Oh My goodness Last night was so much fun... I can't get over Chrystal, shes a Pisser!! LoL!! She dresses so great too... ehehe sometimes I can't keep my eyes off her... =) heehehe... Im a dawg I know! LoL... Well what else is new, not a whole lot, works sorta slowed down, theres just about two hours to go now... Boy I can't wait to get out of here and go and relax maybe grab a cup of coffee or something... I wanna take my car to the car wash tonight but its going to rain its not worth it lol... fricken rain suxx balls!! LoL!! Well... I should get going I've been on here long enough blabbin away... take care Be good Have Phun!!!
  
"Trying Hard to Look like Gary Cooper... Super Duper"

         MaTt®

PS HERE ARE THE LYRICS TO MY EYES BURN by Matchbook Romance

Matchbook Romance - My Eyes Burn

My eyes burn from these tears
You think you’d learn over these years
Good things won’t last forever

So what the hell am I suppose to do
You only wanted the things that I couldn’t give to you
And you had it all anyway

So take everything and leave me scrambling
Reaching for something that wasn’t there in the first place

So take take everything and leave me scrambling
Reaching for something that wasn’t there in the first place

Tell me i'm wrong when I say
I can’t expect you to stay forever with me
I live for the single moment

I take back everything i've said
You would those words on you lips
As if they meant anything

Sometimes I feel I could drop off the face of the earth
It seems I do more harm than good
And I don’t know if it’s worth me loosing sleep over this

So take take everything and leave me scrambling
Reaching for something that wasn’t there in the first place

So take everything and leave me scrambling
Reaching for something that wasn’t there in the first place

Tell me I’m wrong when I say it
I can’t expect you to stay forever with me
I live for the single moment

So take everything and leave me scrambling
Reaching for something that wasn’t there in the first place

So take take everything and leave me scrambling
Reaching for something that wasn’t there in the first place

So take take everything and leave me scrambling
Reaching for something that wasn’t there in the first place



Ahhh Not Much Going on, Getting my ass handed to me in SOCOM I'm pissed about that tonight, anyways Talked to Chrystal today over email shes going back to NYC I wont be seeing her for a while, I'll Miss her shes such a good friend!  I Loved hanging out with her at the show shes such a blast Wow... Jeez... Too bad we were so far away, and I had a g/f sometimes I think we'd make a good couple hahaha... we both like the same stuff, My girlfriend, I can't even take her to the club or to a show, she dont like that stuff, shes such a kill joy sometimes... I dunno... Life is so funny sometimes, I'm glad I have her as my friend... Chrys. If ur reading this dont get the wrong Idea... of me! =) Well... I gotta take a leak then im gonna try and smoke some mofo's on SOCOM Talk to ya Later!


Posted at 03:55 pm by FinDingEmo
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Feb 28, 2004
HungOver...

Well, Thursday Night, 11:00pm Rolled around, and I headed to work to meet my friends to head to the bar. We got to the bar maybe an hour later, and went to the Saké Bar and began our Binge so to speak... we all did a shot of Saké and then myself and Tom had a japanese beer, called Sapporo, Good Beer, smooth tasting. through the time at the Saké bar, we had many more shots, inside the bar, there is three bars, the Saké bar, a regular bar, and then downstairs was a club with another bar, each of them I had at least 1 drink, so after drinking a good amount of Saké, (some of which was on the house, the bartender was Japanese and so damn fine), beer, and Some shots we walked/stumbled to Mcgullicuddy's which was right up the road. so we went there and I had a beer, and the guys were playing pool having a good time, then my other buddy Matt bought me a Southern Comfort and Lime shot... I had a few more of those through the nights end, and as the night progressed, I made some friends, as I got more messed up. I was haning with this chick Fiona (or something) and I was buyin her drinks and stuff we were flirting a lil bit, but my buddies kept telling me it was just the beer goggles and it wasnt worth it... So finally around 4am or so we left the bar, and we headed back to work. I was probably very annoying in the car but luckily I didnt puke or anything. I ended up passing out here, I woke up in the morning and gathered my stuff, and headed out I headed home around 8:00 and went right to bed when i walked in. My mom was up and suprised to see me home so late, I told her that I slept at work, cuz it was a late night. Then I headed back to sleep, and slet til the afternoon around 12:00pm I woke up ran to the bathroom and threw up a lil, once I threw up I felt better bit still had a headache my g/f asked what was wrong I told her I had a lil bugg lol hehe... if she only knew. LoL... So last night we went to Perkins and got some food, I hadnt eaten anything the whole day, I just drank Gatorade and V8 and Water. So I had French toast with Water and I felt ok. I havent thrown up anything else now so I'm happy... Think the hangover is done, I'd like to go out drinking with the guys again, but in a few weeks, I think im going to give drinking a rest for now, lol... I had a good time, maybe next time I'll hit on hotter girls though lol!! Well Im bout to head out  go get some Breakfast, I'll talk later, only few days left til MEST!! Whoohoo!! Peace!!

 MaTt®

Lyrics for today:

Bulimic - The Used

From the way that you acted
To the way that I felt it
It wasn't worth my time
And now it's sad cause all I missed
Wasn’t that good to begin with
And now I've started you begging 
Saying things that you don't mean
It isn't worth my time
A line's a dime a million times
And I'm about to see all of them 

(Chorus)
Goodbye to you (Goodbye to you)
You’re taking up my time 
Goodbye to you (Goodbye to you)
You’re taking up my time
Goodbye to you (Goodbye to you)
You're taking up my time
Goodbye to you (Goodbye to you)

You call my name when I wake up 
To see things go your way
I’m coughing up my time
Each drag's a drop of blood a grain
A minute of my life
It’s all I've got just to stay down
Why the fuck am I still down
I'm hoarding all that’s mine
Each time I let just one slip by
I'm wasting what is mine

(Repeat Chorus)

(Bridge)
I’m about to see a million things
I thought I’d never see before and I
I’m about to do all the things I dreamed of
And I don't even miss you at all 

(Repeat Bridge)

(Repeat Chorus)



Posted at 11:22 am by FinDingEmo
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Feb 25, 2004
Place your hand in Mine, I'll Leave when I wanna...

Last night after I got done Bloggin, and I ate Dinner, I was sitting there playing a lil Socom, Finishing off a Beer (Dog Fish Head - India Pale Ale) Good BEER! I was on the phone with my G/F and I was kinda glancing between SOCOM, and My AOL and I noticed I had an IM... Brynne IM'd me, She IM'ed me and said "For the Record, I really miss you" and then she got offline... My Heart melted, and my mind started racing... Moments Later she came back online, and I IM'd her back, and told her I really missed her too... I felt like crying, from both happiness that we were finally talking again, and the fact that I missed her so much. We talked for about an hour, mostly about things kept intimate between us, about her boyfriend, and how he made her get rid of her cat, cuz he cant stay in the same house as the cat, and she was mentioning how losing her cat made her so upset, I felt horrible, I truthfully wouldnt make her get rid of her cat for any reason... I love all animals so, and I have 2 cats myself so its not a big deal. She was saying how she is moving close to A&M this summer and her Boyfriend ultimatum is to get his ass out there with her when she leaves or it's over... Shes gave him this ultimatum before but I think that this is the last time. I told her that if i could find work out there, I would move out there with her when I have to move (truthfully dont know whats going to happen with me and my g/f in a few months due more to personal reasons) so she smiled and the thought, and I think the thought of us still remains in her head as a real possibility, So by 10:30 my g/f was still on the phone, and by now I was feeling nice and tipsy, she began rambling on and I was like this girl is not gonna mess up my mood, So I got off the phone with her, and I focused my conversation more on Brynne for a while. After a half hour or so more, I eventually had to go, cuz it was getting late and I obviously needed to be up early for work, So i got off, and she seemed reluctant to tell me she loved me, on the IM but I think she wanted to say it... I hope lol =) So we went our seperate ways, and I logged off and went to bed. This morning I woke up, and checked the newspaper, and right on the front page, there was a picture of a stripmall in poughkeepsie that caught on fire, Suprisingly it was a place I know all too well, it housed a speed shop and a couple of other businesses I was stunned, the place is totally demolshed it will be a while before they get rebuilt probably... that sucks but thats a part of life I guess, I hope no one was injured... So what else is new, oh yeah I went down and got breakfast and my clumsy self spills some on my left left, so now I have my mom coming up here this morning to drop off another pair of pants for me (thank goodness) So thats the Highlight of my day so far, It's FRIDAY FOR ME TODAY SO WHOOHOO NO WORK TOMMAROW!! I'll Write more later if I have the time!! LaterZ!!!
  

         MaTt®

 


Posted at 01:01 pm by FinDingEmo
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Feb 24, 2004
Fate Fell Short This Time...

Good Evening, Time for another Edition of Matt's BLoG... I'm your Host... Ahh ok, enough with the Crap, anyways Today was a long ass day, Last night my girlfriend slept over so this morning it made it very hard for me to get up. I got to work on time, but of course the friggen parking lot was full which initially pissed me off... Secondly I get into work, and there are a Million Things going on. So I immediately jump in to one, that keeps me on the line for like ever, finally we get the problem resolved and its like 8:30 Time for breakfast (half hour LAte) How about this, My Luck has it, theres no more hot cereal ohhh well ok, I'll have an orange... So it seems like we are getting the morning off to a wonderful start, the day went by through lunch time fairly quiet, kinda sat around, and did some work, but nothing serious, Minor Shit, I popped on checked out Klara's Blog, and some other stuff. Ahh now 3:30 Rolls around and the shift lead for 2nd shift starts bitchin we missed a few things, well it wasnt me but my cohort behind me, who wasnt doing his job, So I ended up staying around after he left, and she told me to tell him, to shape up and pay attention, or she will be forced to mention this to his shift lead... So I'm like ok... then I went over Talked to Thom, for a few Minutes about the Sakè bar, we're, all going to meet thursday night after work, and go!! I can't wait lol... anyways, what else. tommarows friday for me (Wednesday really) whoo hoo I cant wait... Yikes I just Ran my nail across my tat really hard (forgetting it was there) hopefully i didnt mess it up, its practically healed but im still a lil skeptical... lol... I was supposed to go out and get food tonight, But I highly doubt its going to happen, cuz I'm going to start drinking and shit, and pass out prolly and wake up at like 3:00am... lol and then I wont be interested in getting food for any reason. So anyways, been kinda sittin here playing socom, Just Chillin... Brynne is online right now, but I have nothing to say to her so whatever I will let her talk to me... when she/if she/wants to. If Not I dont give a flying hoot what happens... She decided to Sever all ties with me, fine with me... God I'd really like to pick up some hot girls at this Sakè Bar thursday night or at least flirt or something... Just knowing I still have it in me would be nice, sometimes I guess I just need a lil something something to keep me alive... lol Granted, I love my G/F Its just the fact that sometimes, I wanna see different people or just hang out with anyone but her, ya know... other times I really feel the love I have for her is real and I miss her undeniably... I guess I'm just a typical 21yr old guy and this is all a part of growing up... God I wish I could just skip all this growing up and zoom to the being a real adult... or sometimes I wish I could go back to being in High School (maybe be like 16-18 again) Relive/Re-do things and change so many things its unreal.... but I know we can't anyways thursday morning I have the Doctor's office for my feet (Wonderful) I had to cancel last week cuz I had to work third shift... I dont know if I end Up getting seriously drunk I will just have a friend drop me off at work and I will crash there, I Dont Care, Anyways I Took this Quiz today, "Which Peanuts Character are you?" I'm Charlie Brown, Read below. LoL, Anyways I went over to Barnes and Noble After work, and I was looking at computer books and I got into a conversation with a guy who Worked for BOCES as like a Computer Tech. and we were talking about Linux and What not, he was pretty cool... Seems like he was learning it for the first time, which is cool, no time like the present to learn, Linux is an awsome O/S once you get the hang of it I'll tell u now... lol Anyways, What else is new? I Dont think there's much else going on, My dad is down stairs cooking dinner, now, Good thing, Cuz i wasnt hungry earlier, when I got in around 5:30, I sat down and ate a bowl of special K, and then came up here to play SOCOM... So.... Yeah I guess I'm a lil hungry... Well now it's 8:00pm... So The nights slowly Ending... I will go, Sorry if I bored any of you who decide to stroll along to Matt Land, but I guess theres not that much going on. Have a good night everyone I will try to post more tommarow night LaTeRZ

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Posted at 11:04 pm by FinDingEmo
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Feb 22, 2004
Terror On the Intercom... Can Someone Save us?

Good Morning, Another Wonderful day is upon us as usual... Today is sunday, a typical sunday at that, I am stuck at work, as usual doing basically nothing, It's fairly quiet, aside from the fact that theres someone on the other side of the room, who talks quite loud when he's on the phone... aside from that though, It's a quiet day with a small amount of problems coming through which is nice... I think I slept in an uncomfortable position last night, because my left left (thigh area) is in a lot of pain, whether I'm sitting or moving around. It's bugging me a lot, I don't know why it hurts so much but it does, anyways, last night me and my g/f went out and grabbed a bite to eat at this little restaurant/bar down the road from me, and I had told her when we were on our way, that, this guy at my job had told me that rap star DMX was there last night and performed a small show, I believed him a little bit but considering the size of this place, I doubted his words, well, When my girlfriend and I went in, she asked the Hostess, if DMX did really come and perform, and sure enough she said Yes, My Jaw just dropped! Apparently the owner of the restaurant has more restaurants/bars down in the westchester area, and DMX is a good friend of the owner, I was stunned! But apparently he performed around 2 in the morning... pretty interesting shit if you ask me. So anyways, we decided not to go to the movie last night, by the time we got out of dinner we both had decided we wanted to go home and lay down, so we headed home, and when we got in, her brother and mother were going through world war 3 basically a huge screaming match between the two, with him eventually leaving and her mother in a bitchy mood, basically her mom had went out the whole evening into part of the next day and came home eventually, and it was basically lack of sleep that caused her to act like a ticking time bomb, that eventually exploded, even taking her bitchieness out on my G/F as well as myself... once the arguing was over, we passed out til 10, then I went home, when I got in, I grabbed a bottle of Guinness and drank that while I played SOCOM... which my Online game came to an abrupt end cuz I kept getting disconnected from the server which pissed me off, so I decided to just play an off line game and whoop some ass on that, which I did... then around 12:30 I passed out I was beat, So I slept til about 6:15 and got up and headed to work, I stopped at the gas station this morning and picked up 2 bottles of water for the day, and some lil breakfast square thing, but by 9:30 I was hungry again, so I headed up to dunkins, and got a cup of coffee and a bagel... when I was in there I saw this guy Mike I used to work with, with his girlfriend, and we chatted for a few minutes, He's in his 30's and his girlfriends probably around 30... she's very good looking, hes a lucky guy lol... so then I headed back to work, and here I am, typing away, its almost 11:30, in a few minutes I'm going to be asked if I'm interested in lunch... which I will be at 12:00pm, so by the time i put actually eat it will be around 12:00-12:30... So yeah I'll be hungry... Tonight's going to be an ok night, me and my g/f will go grab a quick bite out and then just chill at her house. then I come back here and do it all over again tommarow. whoopee... but wednesday will be my friday so I look forward to that coming up... finally 2 days off, I've been working 7days straight so, its getting a lil hectic. Thursday night, me and a couple buddies from work are going to the Saki (Sake) bar and get a lil messed up, maybe flirt with the bar tenders lol!! so I'll post how that goes, also I gotta pick up them tickets for MEST soon, or chrystal will kill me, lol! well I guess i should get going, check out my randomly read Blogs section for other cool blogs... Adieu!

  MaTT
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PS New Lyrics for the day

Stabbing Westard - Waking up beside you.


 

I've been so alone for so long
Forgotten by the world
Forgotten to myself
You effervescent eyes have awakened me
and brushed the dust away
But I knew you'd never stay

So I memorized the color of your eyes
As I lost myself inside you
And I memorized the way our legs entwined
As I drifted off beside you

I miss, God I miss
Waking up beside you

But now I cling to you
I'm so afraid
Afraid a day will come
And I'll wake and find you gone
But you promised that you'd not abandon me
And then kissed my fears away
But I woke up to that day

But I memorized the way out eyes would meet
Reflected in the bathroom mirror
And I memorized your naked silhouette
As you slowly brushed your hair

I miss, God I miss
Waking up beside you

I've been so alone for so long
Forgot how much it hurts
To wake up so alone

But I'd memorized how warm your body felt
As you lay half asleep beside me.
And I memorized the way the sunlight filled the room
And played upon your body

I miss, God I miss
Waking up beside you
I miss, God I miss
Waking up beside you


 

 


Posted at 02:30 pm by FinDingEmo
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Feb 21, 2004
With Hopes of starting over...

So, its Saturday... yesterday was ok, worked the whole day then went out to the olive garden and stuffed my face... I still feel full lol, Well the weathers getting warmer, and I'm getting back to my srping regiment, Water, Vegetables, and Fibre Diet, and anything that will help clean out my system... today when I came in to work it was warm, I was like ohh nice and I'm noticing the Geese are out which means the weather is progressively getting warmer as well... So that makes me happy, Februarys almost over, so... It's gettin warmer lol... Tonight we're going out to see that new lindsay lohan movie, something about a drama queen... I dont know truthfully, my G/F wants to see it... so... I don't know... if it was up to me, once i get out of here I'd like to go home and hammer back a couple beers... but... whattaya gonna do, lol, if I get home early tonight I will prolly have a few, while I play SOCOM... I haven't gotten to toy with my laptop yet, but I will be working on it during my lunch break... which will be coming soon, thank goodness. When I walked in last night, my laptop was sitting there and on top of my laptop, was a white and brown Element Hat, and my mail... I dont know if someone got me the hat as a gift, or what, I just left it there, cuz no one left a note saying I could have it... but we'll see... anyways, Works going well... Time is going by slow... but not too slow, Internet time is sorta limited cuz the supervisors here, so we gotta watch what we do. anyways, yeah so the day is slowly approaching 3:30, and we are slowly going towards the other side of that clock. I cant wait until we can go home, its really quiet today, hope it stays this way, but then again, one phone call could ruin the day So hopefully it stays quiet, and hopefully i can fix my computer while on lunch, and it doesnt turn into a big to-do... ya know... anyways last night I had a dream about Brynne, like this time we met, and I told her everything, and she kinda just looked at me like I didnt care, everyday that goes by I feel I should write her or something, but I dont know, shes probably not worth it... We'll see anyways I'm going to get out of here, I don't have much to write maybe more, will be written later, I don't know, Bye.
    MaTT®

Posted at 02:47 pm by FinDingEmo
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Feb 20, 2004
Over my head, from something I said... Completely misread, I'm better off dead!

So, Good Friday morning, I'm here at work... Ohh I love this place... well actually I dont mind working, its just the fact that I got to wait until thursday til my next day off which is going to suck, I'm working a 7 day work week this week... Anyways... The day is dragging on, and I'm hurting, yesterday I went to the gym again, that was fun... worked pretty hard, did chest and Abs, im feeling all tight, so thats good... anyways I called my house today, to ask my mom a question, and she told me that my computer is messed up so that made me a lil pissed off, anyways my g/f stayed over last night, and came over for dinner, that was cool, I think we just passed out... yesterday I took my car up to Mobile, and got the oil changed, and went to Half Time, and picked up a Mixed up six pack, which is a six pack which has different types of beers, Ive yet to try them but... I will probably tonight... lol... anyways what else is new, umm, just working really, its almost 3:30, so then I can get the heck out of here... THANK GOD! I want to go home... I really dont mind working but when I cant get at least 1 day off during the week, I get a lil PO'd.... So... what else is new... we're probably going to Ruby tuesdays tonight... that will be nice... what else is new... nothing really just Tired, can't wait to get out of here, and take a nap... that will be nice to do.... sometimes during the day it gets so quiet in here, that the only thing that is really heard is the constant humming from the servers and the Raised floor Air conditioners, to keep the wiring cool... It puts me to sleep sometimes when its this quiet, I mean the phone hasnt rang once since I walked in... so... If it stays quiet for the rest of the afternoon, I will be very happy. So I guess thats about it, I will write more tommarow, hopefully there will be something new to share, but probably not, take care!

  MaTT
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Posted at 04:16 pm by FinDingEmo
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