Last night after I got done Bloggin, and I ate Dinner, I was sitting there playing a lil Socom, Finishing off a Beer (Dog Fish Head - India Pale Ale) Good BEER! I was on the phone with my G/F and I was kinda glancing between SOCOM, and My AOL and I noticed I had an IM... Brynne IM'd me, She IM'ed me and said "For the Record, I really miss you" and then she got offline... My Heart melted, and my mind started racing... Moments Later she came back online, and I IM'd her back, and told her I really missed her too... I felt like crying, from both happiness that we were finally talking again, and the fact that I missed her so much. We talked for about an hour, mostly about things kept intimate between us, about her boyfriend, and how he made her get rid of her cat, cuz he cant stay in the same house as the cat, and she was mentioning how losing her cat made her so upset, I felt horrible, I truthfully wouldnt make her get rid of her cat for any reason... I love all animals so, and I have 2 cats myself so its not a big deal. She was saying how she is moving close to A&M this summer and her Boyfriend ultimatum is to get his ass out there with her when she leaves or it's over... Shes gave him this ultimatum before but I think that this is the last time. I told her that if i could find work out there, I would move out there with her when I have to move (truthfully dont know whats going to happen with me and my g/f in a few months due more to personal reasons) so she smiled and the thought, and I think the thought of us still remains in her head as a real possibility, So by 10:30 my g/f was still on the phone, and by now I was feeling nice and tipsy, she began rambling on and I was like this girl is not gonna mess up my mood, So I got off the phone with her, and I focused my conversation more on Brynne for a while. After a half hour or so more, I eventually had to go, cuz it was getting late and I obviously needed to be up early for work, So i got off, and she seemed reluctant to tell me she loved me, on the IM but I think she wanted to say it... I hope lol =) So we went our seperate ways, and I logged off and went to bed. This morning I woke up, and checked the newspaper, and right on the front page, there was a picture of a stripmall in poughkeepsie that caught on fire, Suprisingly it was a place I know all too well, it housed a speed shop and a couple of other businesses I was stunned, the place is totally demolshed it will be a while before they get rebuilt probably... that sucks but thats a part of life I guess, I hope no one was injured... So what else is new, oh yeah I went down and got breakfast and my clumsy self spills some on my left left, so now I have my mom coming up here this morning to drop off another pair of pants for me (thank goodness) So thats the Highlight of my day so far, It's FRIDAY FOR ME TODAY SO WHOOHOO NO WORK TOMMAROW!! I'll Write more later if I have the time!! LaterZ!!!
  

         MaTt®

 

Good Evening, Time for another Edition of Matt's BLoG... I'm your Host... Ahh ok, enough with the Crap, anyways Today was a long ass day, Last night my girlfriend slept over so this morning it made it very hard for me to get up. I got to work on time, but of course the friggen parking lot was full which initially pissed me off... Secondly I get into work, and there are a Million Things going on. So I immediately jump in to one, that keeps me on the line for like ever, finally we get the problem resolved and its like 8:30 Time for breakfast (half hour LAte) How about this, My Luck has it, theres no more hot cereal ohhh well ok, I'll have an orange... So it seems like we are getting the morning off to a wonderful start, the day went by through lunch time fairly quiet, kinda sat around, and did some work, but nothing serious, Minor Shit, I popped on checked out Klara's Blog, and some other stuff. Ahh now 3:30 Rolls around and the shift lead for 2nd shift starts bitchin we missed a few things, well it wasnt me but my cohort behind me, who wasnt doing his job, So I ended up staying around after he left, and she told me to tell him, to shape up and pay attention, or she will be forced to mention this to his shift lead... So I'm like ok... then I went over Talked to Thom, for a few Minutes about the Sakč bar, we're, all going to meet thursday night after work, and go!! I can't wait lol... anyways, what else. tommarows friday for me (Wednesday really) whoo hoo I cant wait... Yikes I just Ran my nail across my tat really hard (forgetting it was there) hopefully i didnt mess it up, its practically healed but im still a lil skeptical... lol... I was supposed to go out and get food tonight, But I highly doubt its going to happen, cuz I'm going to start drinking and shit, and pass out prolly and wake up at like 3:00am... lol and then I wont be interested in getting food for any reason. So anyways, been kinda sittin here playing socom, Just Chillin... Brynne is online right now, but I have nothing to say to her so whatever I will let her talk to me... when she/if she/wants to. If Not I dont give a flying hoot what happens... She decided to Sever all ties with me, fine with me... God I'd really like to pick up some hot girls at this Sakč Bar thursday night or at least flirt or something... Just knowing I still have it in me would be nice, sometimes I guess I just need a lil something something to keep me alive... lol Granted, I love my G/F Its just the fact that sometimes, I wanna see different people or just hang out with anyone but her, ya know... other times I really feel the love I have for her is real and I miss her undeniably... I guess I'm just a typical 21yr old guy and this is all a part of growing up... God I wish I could just skip all this growing up and zoom to the being a real adult... or sometimes I wish I could go back to being in High School (maybe be like 16-18 again) Relive/Re-do things and change so many things its unreal.... but I know we can't anyways thursday morning I have the Doctor's office for my feet (Wonderful) I had to cancel last week cuz I had to work third shift... I dont know if I end Up getting seriously drunk I will just have a friend drop me off at work and I will crash there, I Dont Care, Anyways I Took this Quiz today, "Which Peanuts Character are you?" I'm Charlie Brown, Read below. LoL, Anyways I went over to Barnes and Noble After work, and I was looking at computer books and I got into a conversation with a guy who Worked for BOCES as like a Computer Tech. and we were talking about Linux and What not, he was pretty cool... Seems like he was learning it for the first time, which is cool, no time like the present to learn, Linux is an awsome O/S once you get the hang of it I'll tell u now... lol Anyways, What else is new? I Dont think there's much else going on, My dad is down stairs cooking dinner, now, Good thing, Cuz i wasnt hungry earlier, when I got in around 5:30, I sat down and ate a bowl of special K, and then came up here to play SOCOM... So.... Yeah I guess I'm a lil hungry... Well now it's 8:00pm... So The nights slowly Ending... I will go, Sorry if I bored any of you who decide to stroll along to Matt Land, but I guess theres not that much going on. Have a good night everyone I will try to post more tommarow night LaTeRZ

MaTt®

Good Morning, Another Wonderful day is upon us as usual... Today is sunday, a typical sunday at that, I am stuck at work, as usual doing basically nothing, It's fairly quiet, aside from the fact that theres someone on the other side of the room, who talks quite loud when he's on the phone... aside from that though, It's a quiet day with a small amount of problems coming through which is nice... I think I slept in an uncomfortable position last night, because my left left (thigh area) is in a lot of pain, whether I'm sitting or moving around. It's bugging me a lot, I don't know why it hurts so much but it does, anyways, last night me and my g/f went out and grabbed a bite to eat at this little restaurant/bar down the road from me, and I had told her when we were on our way, that, this guy at my job had told me that rap star DMX was there last night and performed a small show, I believed him a little bit but considering the size of this place, I doubted his words, well, When my girlfriend and I went in, she asked the Hostess, if DMX did really come and perform, and sure enough she said Yes, My Jaw just dropped! Apparently the owner of the restaurant has more restaurants/bars down in the westchester area, and DMX is a good friend of the owner, I was stunned! But apparently he performed around 2 in the morning... pretty interesting shit if you ask me. So anyways, we decided not to go to the movie last night, by the time we got out of dinner we both had decided we wanted to go home and lay down, so we headed home, and when we got in, her brother and mother were going through world war 3 basically a huge screaming match between the two, with him eventually leaving and her mother in a bitchy mood, basically her mom had went out the whole evening into part of the next day and came home eventually, and it was basically lack of sleep that caused her to act like a ticking time bomb, that eventually exploded, even taking her bitchieness out on my G/F as well as myself... once the arguing was over, we passed out til 10, then I went home, when I got in, I grabbed a bottle of Guinness and drank that while I played SOCOM... which my Online game came to an abrupt end cuz I kept getting disconnected from the server which pissed me off, so I decided to just play an off line game and whoop some ass on that, which I did... then around 12:30 I passed out I was beat, So I slept til about 6:15 and got up and headed to work, I stopped at the gas station this morning and picked up 2 bottles of water for the day, and some lil breakfast square thing, but by 9:30 I was hungry again, so I headed up to dunkins, and got a cup of coffee and a bagel... when I was in there I saw this guy Mike I used to work with, with his girlfriend, and we chatted for a few minutes, He's in his 30's and his girlfriends probably around 30... she's very good looking, hes a lucky guy lol... so then I headed back to work, and here I am, typing away, its almost 11:30, in a few minutes I'm going to be asked if I'm interested in lunch... which I will be at 12:00pm, so by the time i put actually eat it will be around 12:00-12:30... So yeah I'll be hungry... Tonight's going to be an ok night, me and my g/f will go grab a quick bite out and then just chill at her house. then I come back here and do it all over again tommarow. whoopee... but wednesday will be my friday so I look forward to that coming up... finally 2 days off, I've been working 7days straight so, its getting a lil hectic. Thursday night, me and a couple buddies from work are going to the Saki (Sake) bar and get a lil messed up, maybe flirt with the bar tenders lol!! so I'll post how that goes, also I gotta pick up them tickets for MEST soon, or chrystal will kill me, lol! well I guess i should get going, check out my randomly read Blogs section for other cool blogs... Adieu!

  MaTT®

PS New Lyrics for the day

Stabbing Westard - Waking up beside you.

 

I've been so alone for so long
Forgotten by the world
Forgotten to myself
You effervescent eyes have awakened me
and brushed the dust away
But I knew you'd never stay

So I memorized the color of your eyes
As I lost myself inside you
And I memorized the way our legs entwined
As I drifted off beside you

I miss, God I miss
Waking up beside you

But now I cling to you
I'm so afraid
Afraid a day will come
And I'll wake and find you gone
But you promised that you'd not abandon me
And then kissed my fears away
But I woke up to that day

But I memorized the way out eyes would meet
Reflected in the bathroom mirror
And I memorized your naked silhouette
As you slowly brushed your hair

I miss, God I miss
Waking up beside you

I've been so alone for so long
Forgot how much it hurts
To wake up so alone

But I'd memorized how warm your body felt
As you lay half asleep beside me.
And I memorized the way the sunlight filled the room
And played upon your body

I miss, God I miss
Waking up beside you
I miss, God I miss
Waking up beside you

 

 

So, Good Friday morning, I'm here at work... Ohh I love this place... well actually I dont mind working, its just the fact that I got to wait until thursday til my next day off which is going to suck, I'm working a 7 day work week this week... Anyways... The day is dragging on, and I'm hurting, yesterday I went to the gym again, that was fun... worked pretty hard, did chest and Abs, im feeling all tight, so thats good... anyways I called my house today, to ask my mom a question, and she told me that my computer is messed up so that made me a lil pissed off, anyways my g/f stayed over last night, and came over for dinner, that was cool, I think we just passed out... yesterday I took my car up to Mobile, and got the oil changed, and went to Half Time, and picked up a Mixed up six pack, which is a six pack which has different types of beers, Ive yet to try them but... I will probably tonight... lol... anyways what else is new, umm, just working really, its almost 3:30, so then I can get the heck out of here... THANK GOD! I want to go home... I really dont mind working but when I cant get at least 1 day off during the week, I get a lil PO'd.... So... what else is new... we're probably going to Ruby tuesdays tonight... that will be nice... what else is new... nothing really just Tired, can't wait to get out of here, and take a nap... that will be nice to do.... sometimes during the day it gets so quiet in here, that the only thing that is really heard is the constant humming from the servers and the Raised floor Air conditioners, to keep the wiring cool... It puts me to sleep sometimes when its this quiet, I mean the phone hasnt rang once since I walked in... so... If it stays quiet for the rest of the afternoon, I will be very happy. So I guess thats about it, I will write more tommarow, hopefully there will be something new to share, but probably not, take care!

  MaTT®

I'm Working, Oh how I love working, especially at 03:30 in the morning... I slept at my girlfriends house this evening/last evening, and woke up around 10 minutes to 2 to get to work at 03:00, well on my way into work, what happens.... I Get Pulled over!! Wonderful!! I knew I was, I was around like 30 cops from the minute I left her house, luckily he was a suprisingly nice guy, and wasnt a dick... he was just bustin chops/doing his job, making sure I wasnt a drunk... I mean I understand where hes coming from I mean 2 in the morning, only car on the road... I May be drunk... So he's just doin his job... I understand it... it's cool, he just told me to get rid of the blue lights in my corners of my car... So... I was like alright, no problem... Anyways, yeah well SO Much from MY FRIDAY(Wednesday) I'm working tonight/this morning (thursday) and I'm working Friday as well... Ohhh Joy! I'm so lucky... but the minute I wanted to switch days off with someone it can't be done... Whatever... anyways... what else is new, me and my girlfriend played the game life... she's like a lil kid sometimes, the little things get her off, lol... games, and such... So that was fun, then we passed out, Man I didnt wanna wake up... It was so comfortable, but all I kept dreaming about was, work, work, work, work, work... lol, The guys already call me 7-11 cuz I'm here 24/7, lol now I'm living up to it by working a 7 day a week schedule... ughh.... ::Sigh:: What else is new, nothing really... I cant wait til spring, march is almost here, then I can start running some more, cuz it will be getting warm... Hrmm what else is new, Oh yeah, I got a nice little Letter from Chrystal, she was saying hello, and what not, it's nice to know shes still out there... not like anyone else is... I'm considering writing Brynne, a hand written letter... Just really telling her how much not talking to her has eaten me up inside... I wonder if she wil even read it, or will it be sent back to me... What does everyone think?? if anyone even reads this shit... Should I write her?? Or should I just forget about it... I think by me writing her, it will really close a true chapter in my life with her... God I've known her for 10 years Online, and I really, really fell for her, I wanted so badly to meet her, and treat her the way her boyfriend never did; Like a Queen... Guess I'll never have that chance... Oh yeah off the subject but another reason why I'm madd about working too is the fact that I was supposed to go out with Thom Tonight, and Hit up the Bars and have a lil fun... I called him to cancel, he's prolly there right now, Oh well... LoL hopefully hes having a good time, not getting too messed up... lol I'm glad I wasnt doing anything stupid when I was driving to work, or I might have been in some serious trouble myself... Guess some things are meant to happen for a reason... anyways... ughh... here it is 04:00 its been an hour... all I am doing is basically sitting here though... I like writing iny My Blog, it allows me to express the shit I cant to everyone else. Life is so Weird sometimes I swear I wish I could look into the future to see what is really going to happen I live on these kinds of things... Ohh before I went to work, I took an extended trip up route 9 for 2 reasons, 1 to see if Mccoys was open (grab one before work) and 2. to see the Bridge... I dont know if I ever explained my reason behind the bridge so here goes, a long time ago when I was with shannon, one night, she took me down to the waterfront, and we were like right next to the bridge, and It was the most beautiful thing I think I ever saw in my life, aside from her face... It was really nice, even though we were there for like 10 minutes... The Bridge was all lit up that night... all kinds of colors and what not, it was so perfect. so every now and again, any chance I get at night, I like to go by it, It reminds me of her, of the nights we had, and of the old days... the good ol' days, god im some hopeless romantic or something... lol... so anyways the bridge wasnt that lit up tonight, but it still brought her back to my thoughts... ::Sigh:: so anyways what else is new, not really a lot, tattoo is almost completely healed... which is cool its healing nicely... I had to reschedule my doctors appoitment cuz I gotta work tonight... tommarow, I gotta go to get my Oil Changed, and I'm going to stop up at half time, and take a look at the beers they have... lol...  they have 1,000 beers!! WoW!! thats a lot of beer... So, hrmm, anyways I got some more lyrics for tonights blog, they kind of bring up, what happened between me and brynne, so here we go, until the next chance I have to write here, have a great one!!

Well, Today so far has been a good day, My girlfriend stayed the night last night, we grabbed a sixer of Mikes and headed home... not a bad evening... she cut my hair for me, then during the hair cut she all of a sudden got a really bad bloody nose... she get's them every now and again, I felt so bad, I held her head back and what not so it would help stop the bleeding, and after 10 minutes it finally stopped. We then popped into my bed, and I did her homework, then we passed out only to be woken up by the TV later on in the evening/morning... so i shut that off and passed back out, Then finally at 06:00 I had to wake up to go to work, Once i got to work i realized the parking lot was full, so i had to drive all the way around to the larger lot, which made me late for work... i love it! so finally i got to work, and now I'm here typing to u... Today I dont know if I am going to look at that computer, cuz the guy i initialy spoke to wasnt home and hasnt gotten back to me...so we'll see... anyways what else is new... work is ok, its almost wednesday (my friday!!) I cant wait... I was supposed to go to lake george this weekend but I cant cuz i gotta work and i cant find someone to cover... which sucks but ohh well soon enough we'll do something together... I'll prolly spend the night drinkin, and playin SOCOM! lol... So whats new... not a hell of a lot, same old stuff, really... I thought i would have more to write but I guess I don't well, I'm going to go then, have a nice day! bye bye!

   MaTt®

Contrary to my Title for today's entry, Valentines day was all but a massacre, it went by very well, My Girlfriend and I went to dinner last night in this little Italian restaurant, down from my house, they make the best home made Italian food,  She had the Chicken Marsala, I had the Penne Ala Vodka,  Dinner was very nice, we were going to go see "50 First Dates" but by the time we finished eating the only thing we thought was, lets go home and relax, and rest, so thats what we did, we went home, and passed out... It was Nice, but I just wish we could have done more... I'd really like to take her up to her fathers place in lake george for the weekend one weekend... so we could have a weekend completely alone... It would be nice... We will see... Thats where her brother and his girlfriend went along with his cousin, and his wife, and a friend and his g/f we coulda went but truthfully it would have been too crowded... Ok... here is the burning question, and I want to make sure I'm not turning into a raging alcoholic, but now that I am 21 I am dieing, to go out and drink... Do I just have to get it out of my system, or what?? I mean, I wanna go out with a friend and get shitfaced literally lol but maybe im just experiencing my new freedom for the first time, It felt so nice to come out the other night at the bar, and say "Can I get a Corona", knowing I can legally receive one... which I did... I dunno... I may hit up the gas station tonight, and pick up a mike's for the socom training I have tonight, I will be training my G/f's brother on Socom 2 from over the net, as long as all goes well... Anyways... Todays going well... its been slightly busy, and slow at the same time... We'll see how the rest of the day goes today... I've already had my Coffee for the morning, so Now I'm just waking up... Ughh my body hurts so bad, from working out the other day, it goes to show I havent been to the gym in a while... but its alright, I think im going to start going more and more...  I just cant wait til spring so I can start running, this weather has been so wacky, lately... It was 45 yesterday today its like 12 degrees its so unfair... I hate the cold arctic air we have to deal with... ughhh... what else is new... hrmm lets see, oh yeah I dont know if I originally posted this in the past one, but I went to the Record store the other day, I picked up 2 new cds first, The new Kanye West CD... entitled "The College Dropout" I have one word for this CD.... WOW!! Kanye really puts his heart into this CD... I cant stop listening to it... he's an amazing producer, and just as skillfull behind the MIC... He really put together one amazing CD... not only are the Skits funny, but the heart of the CD... is just spectacular, It is one CD I must honestly give 2 thumbs up... And Normally I'm not a huge huge rap fan, but I really dig this guy... the other CD is an older CD, it is JAY-Z : The Life and Times of Shawn Carter: Volume 3. I love this CD, I used to have it a long time ago, but i lent it to an old friend in high school and I never got it back unfortunately... So i went out and picked that up too, for under 30 bucks I got a shit load of good tunes so I'm happy... So If you're looking for a good new CD pick up Kanye West, you wont be sorry... ok back to the other stuff... Umm... ohh yeah I'm pissed I had 15 bucks in my pocket, and I lost it... I cant find it, oh well its not that big of a deal... and it normally turns up... LoL... anyways, things at home have been well, everyones going about their normal lives... My folks are still looking for a new house in Fla. I need to start looking for something for myself soon... or I'm going to be in trouble, but I know my folks bluff a lot, about moving, and never do anything... so we will see... so anyways this week will be an interesting one, like i believe i mentioned earlier, tuesday I have to go to newburgh to look at a computer, and then thursday, I have to go to the doctor, to get a prognosis on my foot, I have a skin problem on my feet, that may require a small amount of surgery be performed... (I'm soo excited about that one) so we will see what happens with that... I hope they arent going to kill me because I dont want to be out of work for any amount of time... I like it here, and I hate to put anyone under stress of having to work an extra day... but we'll see... they said if I need surgery at most i'll be off my feet for a day or two... but thats too long for me, I will bring crutches in, I don't care... think I'm kidding, I'm not... so anyways... what else is new and interesting... not too much really Chrystal sent me an email, she's home for a day for the weekend... and next time she'll be back is the 2nd for MEST!! whoohoo cant wait for that one! soooo... what else is new... hrmmm... work is still going by slow, so... hopefully it stays that way... it's almost 11 so we got about 4 hours til we get to go home... thats nice... I cant wait... We're going to see "50 first dates tonight" so I'll post how that is tommarow night, or tuesday... prolly not tommarow, cuz monday I have a lot going on after work so, we'll see... anyways... Talk to you all soon... I'm going to get going.... hope everyone had a happy Valentines day!! LaTeRz

     MaTT®

Well My Birthday is here last night, I went out at 12:00am, and hit up walmart... I grabbed a 6 pack of beer and headed to the checkout counter, and the lady looked at me and was like "u got ID" and I pleasantly responded Yep! She kinda looked at me funny, and just gave me my beer, I headed home, and my and my bro popped back a couple, it was fun... then I passed out... I was so tired last night it was funny... Anyways, Today, the day was pretty basic, I went to the Gym with my Bro, and we killed ourselves I benched a lot more than I thought I could, so that made me happy... anyways, we went to dinner tonight, and I went to the bar, with my Dad, he grabbed a beer and so did I, The guy kinda loooked at my liscence a lil funny, ohh yeah... I finally got my new liscence today, I was awfully happy about that... I look funny in the picture, but ohh well... At least it doesnt say "Under 21" anymore... hahha... So anyways, while driving around to find a parking spot at the restaurant My brother runs up to me, and says "Happy Birthday, and hands me a 1 Litre Bottle of "HPNOTIQ", I was like holy cow, how did u get this?? and he was like I just did... lol so Me and my girlfriend took a LIL sip in the car to give it a taste, its good... I dont know how my brother got it, he's only 17 but he did... hes a lunatic... So anyways, that was really nice of him, he said it was awfully expensive, but it was madd nice of him... LoL!! anyways that was awsome, It's in my room right now, sitting there, I also brought the bottle of EVERCLEAR in. Thats hidden, I dont want anyone getting their hands on it, lol, anyways... what else is new... Back to work tommarow, but I dont mind, It's saturday and slow, so needless to say my birthday was gr8! I had an awsome time and I'm very happy!!! I wish Brynne, had acknowledged it was my birthday, but She hasnt. I dont think she even wants to talk to me, I'm not going to mention how much it eats me up inside, but It does...  Anyways what else is new... ohh yeah my dad learned about my new Tat! lol... He didnt care about... hes funny. My Linux Cap showed up today, I'm happy about that. My girlfriends mom gave me this awsome spongebob shirt, It's really cute, I will wear it this week sometime... lol... So today was really a good day, MY DAY... lol out of 365 days a year I had a good day... I got paid today, I got my New Liscence today, I got My linux cap today, I got some nice presents today... So it was a good day... Im lovin it, tommarows Valentines day, Now I give presents, lol!! well ya know what... I should really get going... It is going to be tough to wake up in the morning with the liquor in my blood... now i gotta find a lil jaegermeister then i will be set!! Well I gotta run, its been A great day! Ill write more tommarow when i get to work until then Adieu!