I'm Working, Oh how I love working, especially at 03:30 in the morning... I slept at my girlfriends house this evening/last evening, and woke up around 10 minutes to 2 to get to work at 03:00, well on my way into work, what happens.... I Get Pulled over!! Wonderful!! I knew I was, I was around like 30 cops from the minute I left her house, luckily he was a suprisingly nice guy, and wasnt a dick... he was just bustin chops/doing his job, making sure I wasnt a drunk... I mean I understand where hes coming from I mean 2 in the morning, only car on the road... I May be drunk... So he's just doin his job... I understand it... it's cool, he just told me to get rid of the blue lights in my corners of my car... So... I was like alright, no problem... Anyways, yeah well SO Much from MY FRIDAY(Wednesday) I'm working tonight/this morning (thursday) and I'm working Friday as well... Ohhh Joy! I'm so lucky... but the minute I wanted to switch days off with someone it can't be done... Whatever... anyways... what else is new, me and my girlfriend played the game life... she's like a lil kid sometimes, the little things get her off, lol... games, and such... So that was fun, then we passed out, Man I didnt wanna wake up... It was so comfortable, but all I kept dreaming about was, work, work, work, work, work... lol, The guys already call me 7-11 cuz I'm here 24/7, lol now I'm living up to it by working a 7 day a week schedule... ughh.... ::Sigh:: What else is new, nothing really... I cant wait til spring, march is almost here, then I can start running some more, cuz it will be getting warm... Hrmm what else is new, Oh yeah, I got a nice little Letter from Chrystal, she was saying hello, and what not, it's nice to know shes still out there... not like anyone else is... I'm considering writing Brynne, a hand written letter... Just really telling her how much not talking to her has eaten me up inside... I wonder if she wil even read it, or will it be sent back to me... What does everyone think?? if anyone even reads this shit... Should I write her?? Or should I just forget about it... I think by me writing her, it will really close a true chapter in my life with her... God I've known her for 10 years Online, and I really, really fell for her, I wanted so badly to meet her, and treat her the way her boyfriend never did; Like a Queen... Guess I'll never have that chance... Oh yeah off the subject but another reason why I'm madd about working too is the fact that I was supposed to go out with Thom Tonight, and Hit up the Bars and have a lil fun... I called him to cancel, he's prolly there right now, Oh well... LoL hopefully hes having a good time, not getting too messed up... lol I'm glad I wasnt doing anything stupid when I was driving to work, or I might have been in some serious trouble myself... Guess some things are meant to happen for a reason... anyways... ughh... here it is 04:00 its been an hour... all I am doing is basically sitting here though... I like writing iny My Blog, it allows me to express the shit I cant to everyone else. Life is so Weird sometimes I swear I wish I could look into the future to see what is really going to happen I live on these kinds of things... Ohh before I went to work, I took an extended trip up route 9 for 2 reasons, 1 to see if Mccoys was open (grab one before work) and 2. to see the Bridge... I dont know if I ever explained my reason behind the bridge so here goes, a long time ago when I was with shannon, one night, she took me down to the waterfront, and we were like right next to the bridge, and It was the most beautiful thing I think I ever saw in my life, aside from her face... It was really nice, even though we were there for like 10 minutes... The Bridge was all lit up that night... all kinds of colors and what not, it was so perfect. so every now and again, any chance I get at night, I like to go by it, It reminds me of her, of the nights we had, and of the old days... the good ol' days, god im some hopeless romantic or something... lol... so anyways the bridge wasnt that lit up tonight, but it still brought her back to my thoughts... ::Sigh:: so anyways what else is new, not really a lot, tattoo is almost completely healed... which is cool its healing nicely... I had to reschedule my doctors appoitment cuz I gotta work tonight... tommarow, I gotta go to get my Oil Changed, and I'm going to stop up at half time, and take a look at the beers they have... lol...  they have 1,000 beers!! WoW!! thats a lot of beer... So, hrmm, anyways I got some more lyrics for tonights blog, they kind of bring up, what happened between me and brynne, so here we go, until the next chance I have to write here, have a great one!!

Well, Today so far has been a good day, My girlfriend stayed the night last night, we grabbed a sixer of Mikes and headed home... not a bad evening... she cut my hair for me, then during the hair cut she all of a sudden got a really bad bloody nose... she get's them every now and again, I felt so bad, I held her head back and what not so it would help stop the bleeding, and after 10 minutes it finally stopped. We then popped into my bed, and I did her homework, then we passed out only to be woken up by the TV later on in the evening/morning... so i shut that off and passed back out, Then finally at 06:00 I had to wake up to go to work, Once i got to work i realized the parking lot was full, so i had to drive all the way around to the larger lot, which made me late for work... i love it! so finally i got to work, and now I'm here typing to u... Today I dont know if I am going to look at that computer, cuz the guy i initialy spoke to wasnt home and hasnt gotten back to me...so we'll see... anyways what else is new... work is ok, its almost wednesday (my friday!!) I cant wait... I was supposed to go to lake george this weekend but I cant cuz i gotta work and i cant find someone to cover... which sucks but ohh well soon enough we'll do something together... I'll prolly spend the night drinkin, and playin SOCOM! lol... So whats new... not a hell of a lot, same old stuff, really... I thought i would have more to write but I guess I don't well, I'm going to go then, have a nice day! bye bye!

   MaTt®

Contrary to my Title for today's entry, Valentines day was all but a massacre, it went by very well, My Girlfriend and I went to dinner last night in this little Italian restaurant, down from my house, they make the best home made Italian food,  She had the Chicken Marsala, I had the Penne Ala Vodka,  Dinner was very nice, we were going to go see "50 First Dates" but by the time we finished eating the only thing we thought was, lets go home and relax, and rest, so thats what we did, we went home, and passed out... It was Nice, but I just wish we could have done more... I'd really like to take her up to her fathers place in lake george for the weekend one weekend... so we could have a weekend completely alone... It would be nice... We will see... Thats where her brother and his girlfriend went along with his cousin, and his wife, and a friend and his g/f we coulda went but truthfully it would have been too crowded... Ok... here is the burning question, and I want to make sure I'm not turning into a raging alcoholic, but now that I am 21 I am dieing, to go out and drink... Do I just have to get it out of my system, or what?? I mean, I wanna go out with a friend and get shitfaced literally lol but maybe im just experiencing my new freedom for the first time, It felt so nice to come out the other night at the bar, and say "Can I get a Corona", knowing I can legally receive one... which I did... I dunno... I may hit up the gas station tonight, and pick up a mike's for the socom training I have tonight, I will be training my G/f's brother on Socom 2 from over the net, as long as all goes well... Anyways... Todays going well... its been slightly busy, and slow at the same time... We'll see how the rest of the day goes today... I've already had my Coffee for the morning, so Now I'm just waking up... Ughh my body hurts so bad, from working out the other day, it goes to show I havent been to the gym in a while... but its alright, I think im going to start going more and more...  I just cant wait til spring so I can start running, this weather has been so wacky, lately... It was 45 yesterday today its like 12 degrees its so unfair... I hate the cold arctic air we have to deal with... ughhh... what else is new... hrmm lets see, oh yeah I dont know if I originally posted this in the past one, but I went to the Record store the other day, I picked up 2 new cds first, The new Kanye West CD... entitled "The College Dropout" I have one word for this CD.... WOW!! Kanye really puts his heart into this CD... I cant stop listening to it... he's an amazing producer, and just as skillfull behind the MIC... He really put together one amazing CD... not only are the Skits funny, but the heart of the CD... is just spectacular, It is one CD I must honestly give 2 thumbs up... And Normally I'm not a huge huge rap fan, but I really dig this guy... the other CD is an older CD, it is JAY-Z : The Life and Times of Shawn Carter: Volume 3. I love this CD, I used to have it a long time ago, but i lent it to an old friend in high school and I never got it back unfortunately... So i went out and picked that up too, for under 30 bucks I got a shit load of good tunes so I'm happy... So If you're looking for a good new CD pick up Kanye West, you wont be sorry... ok back to the other stuff... Umm... ohh yeah I'm pissed I had 15 bucks in my pocket, and I lost it... I cant find it, oh well its not that big of a deal... and it normally turns up... LoL... anyways, things at home have been well, everyones going about their normal lives... My folks are still looking for a new house in Fla. I need to start looking for something for myself soon... or I'm going to be in trouble, but I know my folks bluff a lot, about moving, and never do anything... so we will see... so anyways this week will be an interesting one, like i believe i mentioned earlier, tuesday I have to go to newburgh to look at a computer, and then thursday, I have to go to the doctor, to get a prognosis on my foot, I have a skin problem on my feet, that may require a small amount of surgery be performed... (I'm soo excited about that one) so we will see what happens with that... I hope they arent going to kill me because I dont want to be out of work for any amount of time... I like it here, and I hate to put anyone under stress of having to work an extra day... but we'll see... they said if I need surgery at most i'll be off my feet for a day or two... but thats too long for me, I will bring crutches in, I don't care... think I'm kidding, I'm not... so anyways... what else is new and interesting... not too much really Chrystal sent me an email, she's home for a day for the weekend... and next time she'll be back is the 2nd for MEST!! whoohoo cant wait for that one! soooo... what else is new... hrmmm... work is still going by slow, so... hopefully it stays that way... it's almost 11 so we got about 4 hours til we get to go home... thats nice... I cant wait... We're going to see "50 first dates tonight" so I'll post how that is tommarow night, or tuesday... prolly not tommarow, cuz monday I have a lot going on after work so, we'll see... anyways... Talk to you all soon... I'm going to get going.... hope everyone had a happy Valentines day!! LaTeRz

     MaTT®

Well My Birthday is here last night, I went out at 12:00am, and hit up walmart... I grabbed a 6 pack of beer and headed to the checkout counter, and the lady looked at me and was like "u got ID" and I pleasantly responded Yep! She kinda looked at me funny, and just gave me my beer, I headed home, and my and my bro popped back a couple, it was fun... then I passed out... I was so tired last night it was funny... Anyways, Today, the day was pretty basic, I went to the Gym with my Bro, and we killed ourselves I benched a lot more than I thought I could, so that made me happy... anyways, we went to dinner tonight, and I went to the bar, with my Dad, he grabbed a beer and so did I, The guy kinda loooked at my liscence a lil funny, ohh yeah... I finally got my new liscence today, I was awfully happy about that... I look funny in the picture, but ohh well... At least it doesnt say "Under 21" anymore... hahha... So anyways, while driving around to find a parking spot at the restaurant My brother runs up to me, and says "Happy Birthday, and hands me a 1 Litre Bottle of "HPNOTIQ", I was like holy cow, how did u get this?? and he was like I just did... lol so Me and my girlfriend took a LIL sip in the car to give it a taste, its good... I dont know how my brother got it, he's only 17 but he did... hes a lunatic... So anyways, that was really nice of him, he said it was awfully expensive, but it was madd nice of him... LoL!! anyways that was awsome, It's in my room right now, sitting there, I also brought the bottle of EVERCLEAR in. Thats hidden, I dont want anyone getting their hands on it, lol, anyways... what else is new... Back to work tommarow, but I dont mind, It's saturday and slow, so needless to say my birthday was gr8! I had an awsome time and I'm very happy!!! I wish Brynne, had acknowledged it was my birthday, but She hasnt. I dont think she even wants to talk to me, I'm not going to mention how much it eats me up inside, but It does...  Anyways what else is new... ohh yeah my dad learned about my new Tat! lol... He didnt care about... hes funny. My Linux Cap showed up today, I'm happy about that. My girlfriends mom gave me this awsome spongebob shirt, It's really cute, I will wear it this week sometime... lol... So today was really a good day, MY DAY... lol out of 365 days a year I had a good day... I got paid today, I got my New Liscence today, I got My linux cap today, I got some nice presents today... So it was a good day... Im lovin it, tommarows Valentines day, Now I give presents, lol!! well ya know what... I should really get going... It is going to be tough to wake up in the morning with the liquor in my blood... now i gotta find a lil jaegermeister then i will be set!! Well I gotta run, its been A great day! Ill write more tommarow when i get to work until then Adieu!

Okay, So My Illegalness ends in less than 24 hours, then I can legally Drink!! YAY and I'm 21 too which makes me another year older, now I guess I'm a true adult... anyway So, I guess i shall delve into my day... here goes... Today was Hectic, work was crazy cuz not only did we continually get slammed with stupid issues all day, the BIG BOSS Came in today, so we were all sort of on our toes for a good 2 hours... I didnt even wanna go to lunch for fear he may say I was gone too long (Not that hes a jerk or anything, hes actually quite nice once u talk to him, its just I get a lil uptight around authority figures) anyways... So work was crazy, we finally ate lunch... once he left lol, then before I could say "Is it 3:30 yet?" it was 3:30... So now it's my friday whoohoo lol... So I went to my girlfriends house last night/this night, and we basically slept all day... it was nice and relaxing, Then I headed home I stopped at the gas station for a soda, and then Got home...  I ran upstairs and popped on SOCOM... I've been playing since i got in... and that was at like 10:20pm... now it is... 03:00am so It's been a lot of time... lol... So anyways... remember how i mentioned i was wondering where my liscence was... well i called the DMV, and they said cuz its my 21st birthday they mail it out the day before cuz the drinking laws and stuff... So thats cool, as long as its here... hrmm, so what else is new... I did some valentines day shopping yesterday... and got more to do either tommarow or friday... I would like to get my g/f some jewlery, but its just so expensive and im trying to save just a lil bit... but her b-day will be here in a couple months so we will see... My Tattoo is healing nicely, its been itching a lil bit... but ill live... ohhh yeah my buddy at worked hooked my up with a fifth of that everclear The Grain alcohol, hes like "smell it" it smells like rubbing alcohol, i smelled it and almost got high just smelling it, its 190 PROOF!! anyways yeah so that was nice of him to hook me up like that, It's in my trunk i dont know when i will pop that open...lol anyways... So I've been thinking how nice it is, that Brynne musta forgotten all about me... I mean hell even one of my old friends who i havent talked to in forever emailed me and said happy birthday, Brynne hasnt even sent me an email, or an IM for that matter, I'm really beginning to think less and less of her, oh well i guess when someones whipped in a relationship they're whipped... Whatever... So anyways my folks sorta found a house, and now if they end up liking it, like they hope they do, they may put a binder on it, and that will mean my ass is out the door in june... which i dont really want that to happen but ughhh... thats life... I got another Job offer today, but its for old stuff that I used to do at IBM and its a lot less money so im like screw that... I'm kinda out of it, i think im beginning to get overtired and I need to get some sleep but i dont know... I cant wait til my b-day comes... lol i know ive said that enough, I just think its gonna be fun to maybe go to the bar and do the bar scene for a lil bit maybe meet a few people or something ya know... get out and socialize a lil bit more... i dunno... Well... I think its time for me to hit the sac, i got to make some phone calls in the morning so i need to be up for that, good night/morning
   MAtt®

Well today's monday, just another manic monday... what a weird day its been, I woke up today so tired, but I got moving pretty fast got here to work, and got slammed with a million things the minute I walked in, however that's typical of a monday. So I got those issues put behind me, and then I had to get down on my hands and knees and run cable, oh joy, I got absolutely disgusting... the floors arent the cleanest here, so I took care of that... and by then it was lunch time, Lunch time came and gone and I'm still here... My tattoo seems to be healing beautifully... It's getting all like ugly now... and before I know it it should be looking great, like when he first did it... I can't wait... so anyways what else is new ahh yeah 4 more days til my birthday!!! wHOO Hoo!! I can't wait, my buddy's getting me a bottle of everclear (grain alcohol) for my birthday... lol, hopefully I don't die from it! I can drink tequila but not that... lol I'll try a lil lol! (evil grin...) So anyways, what else is new, nothing really its basically just been the same things I've been experiencing the past few weeks/days that really hasnt changed, hopefully soon, maybe if I start hitting a few bars with some friends, I'll meet some interesting people and have a lil more fun... theres so much on my mind, I really wanna buy this motorcycle but my rents keep talk of moving and if that happens my chances of a bike are going down cuz I will need to afford a place... plus my girl keeps nagging me about it and I'm just ready to explode when she goes and starts rambling... when she starts she doesnt shut up and granted I love the girl but I just wanna drive to the nearest donut shop and stuff a donut in her face when she starts... she's quiet when shes enjoying a donut or eating something lol... I love her though... its just sometimes I dont know how much more I can deal with... ahhh whatever, anyways theres not much to write about today, just a plain day, its a lil warmer than yesterday (40's) so hopefully it will be getting warmer ahhh tommorow should be a good day maybe I'll have more to write, until then, I'm getting outt of here... talk to u later
   MaTt®

So, I'm doing an addition to my Blog, why u ask, I have some more to write about, well I came home quick after work, and got changed and on my way out I saw a car stalled on the road, and someone pushing it, and the car looked an awful lot like my brothers, so I looked at the liscence plate and sure enough it was his, so I pulled over and ran up and asked him what happened, he said his car just died in the street, so I was like shit, alright let me help u out... I Gave him a hand pushing it to the side of the road, and popped the hood, everything looked ok under the hood as in battery and what not, so I popped behind the wheel and tried starting it... it kept trying to turn over but didnt catch so finally I gave it one more shot and Boom it started whoo hoo... so he took it to my moms job and apparently it did it again but luckily he was able to get it started again... Anywayz... Me and My girlfriend decide to go out that evening, and We're sitting there eating dinner and all of a sudden she gets a call on her Cell, its my mom, she needed to talk to me, So I grab the phone and she says how she took my laptop to work with her today to look over some stuff during lunch and seemed to have screwed it up with the network connections, So i was a lil pissed but I got over it after sorta yelling at her (which i felt kinda bad about afterwords) and I said I would fix it when I got home... SO i fixed it, and popped online, Guess who sends me a happy birthday email!?? Shannon, My long lost ex-girlfriend whose out in the army and hasnt been heard from, in at least 6 months... Shannons all married and shit now, and shes got the kid on the way, Wow, its amazing how times change, but It was so nice to see an email from her, it was like a real nice birthday present... I was so happy to finally see some sort of "hello" from her... Made me really happy, made my day actually!... So anyways, what else, oh yeah so my mom came down stairs to see if i fixed the issue with the computer, and as she was walking upstairs I like motioned for her to come over, and I was like "I went to the tatttoo shop..." and she was like "did u get it done" and I was like yup... so I showed her, and she was like "wow why so big?? lol" and i was just like it aint that big... but i guess it might be... lolol but she took it like a trooper and got over it... and then she started asking me about moving out this and that, and I guess I'm ready to do it, it's just gonna be a long road... lol... well anyways... now its 11:30pmEST and I'm tired, I got home a lot later than planned tonight, so now I gotta hit the SAC... No SOCOM Tonight, but tommarow night It's on... So Lock and Load... and be prepared!! LoL I gotta Bounce Ohhh What a beautiful night... ohh ohh ohh one more thing, I got a nice birthday card from my Grandparents with a lil spending money in it, that was well appreciated... I will call em tommarow to thank em =) I like money!!! YAY!!! Few more days to go.... 21 is slowly approaching!!! until tommarow Adieu and Boa Noite (sp?)

   MaTT®

Coffee is good. It's just the thing to get me moving in the morning... So where to begin, well yesterday as u know, I said I was going to the tattoo shop, well, after getting lost 3 times in the middle of Kingston (home of Coheed and Cambria) We found wall street and the tattoo shop... So I pulled over and walked into the shop, we were greeted by Brian aka Smitty (who was my artist) I showed him my intentions, and asked him what it was all going to cost, I wanted to get my back touched up and add a glow around it, and he said, "your back is scarred who did this tat" so I told him, who, and what shop, and he was like hes brutal, hes such an ass, and hes got an ego, i totally agreed with him, and he went and got me a price on the tat... to do all the work, was going to be 160... so i was like ohh ok... ( a little more than we bargained on) so after some thinking I said screw the back, what will that cost me, to do just the hatchet man, he told me 140, that was reasonable, so... he rang me up, and I had to use the bathroom (I was drinkin gatorade like a feind, cuz I was nervous, dont ask why, I just was! LoL) So I headed to the Bathroom, and walked out and my artist was sitting at his booth, and he told me I could take a seat, I sat down, and he shaved the spot where I was getting the work done (inside of the calf muscle) then he did the template transfer thing, I checked to see that it was good, and he began, I was so nervous, it had been a long time since I had been tattoo'd (over a year) and he put the needle to my skin, and started "inkin me up" lol... So, He went through with it, and every now and again a couple of the other artists customers came along, and we're looking and some of the artists friends took a look and I got some complements on it, he did an awomse job, its all black but has a light blue glow/outline around it, it looks SICK! as for pain on a level of 1-10 1 being least 10 being most... I'd give it a 3 I was laughing cuz it tickled, lol... now it just feels raw, and it's going through its usual healing phases and what not. I cant wait til it is all healed up it's going to look so sick! I cant wait! So,  lets see what else happened, ahh after that we headed home, and we stopped at bugaboo creek to eat, however it was a 50 minute wait for a 2 person party, so I was like screw that... so we went to ruby tuesdays in fishkill, and then we went back to her house, and fell asleep... I slept there til like 3:30, and then headed home... I got home and t bed around 4:00am... I slept for a good 2 hours more and then got up and headed to work... My leg just feels like I got road rash or something... it will be healed in a couple weeks fully... So anyways what else is new, today has been busy and slow, I actually started writing this Blog around 10:20 and here it is 11:45am so theres been a lot of bumps in the road. lol... Hopefully tonight I will get a lil SOCOM Action in, and have some fun with that, My folks havent seen my tat yet, nor do they know i've gotten it yet... lololol! they're ok with it I think, I mean hell I'm 21 years old for god sakes I can do what I want I was 19 when i got my first one so, I'm pretty much a lot older so... I'm still kinda torn as to whether or not I'm going to be able to afford this motorcycle or not with the possibility of moving in the near future... It's gonna be weird knowing everyones far away, I mean my brother's gonna be in the air force and my folks in Florida and me stuck here so it will be weird but we'll see... I guess... takin 1 day at a time for now...,, We'll see what happens life works in funny ways... so theres like 5 days til my B-day I cant wait!! My new Liscence should be in the mail any day now... I hope it arrives soon, I'm kinda nervous as to where it is... It's been well over 2 weeks now since I applied for it and everything ahh well no one got he mail yesterday so it should be here by monday/tuesday... so anyways... Works almost over another 3 hours or so then I'm heading home... Tuesday I may have my hands full with going to Newburgh to check out that computer, but besides that, and friday its gonna be a boring week... I cant wait til friday, PARTY TIME I might hit the club up sat night. just to pick up some chicks me and tom are gonna go out like in 2 weeks to this bar and pick up some cute asian girls (I got a thing for asian girls I dont know why, they are just hella cute! lol) well... I think I've rambled enought today, I'm outtie, Peace everyone MAKE A COMMENT TAG up the Tag Board!!! Holla @ ur Boy!

      MaTt®

Ahhh Well, its Saturday, and guess what, I'm back at work!! yay! (sarcasm) If I had it my way I'd be playing PS2 or sleeping right now, but oh well... it's another day and theres less than a week left until my birthday YAY!!!! so anyways, my girlfriend has agreed, as my b-day gift to pay for me to get a tattoo... so... We're going to the shop today, to possibly get it done, I gotta see if they have an artist available to do the work, and how much its going to cost and all... so I'm psyched, I'm getting the Psychopathic Records hatchet man, on the inside of my right leg, like on the calf area, but the left side of the right leg, if that makes sense... and im getting the star on my back touched up and getting a glow around it... It's gonna be dope, we're going to Ink Inc. in poughkeepsie... they are awsome, they did some of my g/f's tatts so I trust em... lol lol... they do great work.... so anyways what else is new, ohh yeah so thursday was nice I had the day off, and I went out to dinner with my parents, and my g/f and My parents are slowly but surely beginning the moving process, they are looking into having a house built and stuff, they are planning to move to Florida, I wish I could go but I have my g/f and I have a good job now so that means my options are left to staying here, unless we break up... so that means me moving, to an apartment... I guess in a way it will be good... if I move to an apartment, it will mean closure for me in certain senses. I can really begin to cut off all ties with the "Friends" who have done the same to me... so when they come to look for me, when they need me, I will do what they did to me, (not be there for them, when they need me the most) it's harsh but thats life... so, I'm going to begin looking for a new place to go, my rents already told me I can have a lot of the furniture because when they move they are buying new stuff, they're lucky, nice move to florida, nice house with a pool, and warm sunshine, while im stuck up here, in frozen hell! I hope once my g/f gets done with school she will sense up and maybe want to move away from this shit, but who knows... shes like "oh I cant leave my mom, she doesnt have my father since he walked out on us" but shes sitting there telling me to practically leave my parents flat out... I dont get her sometimes... hypocrit... In the long run, i dont know if we will make it... I think I will go nutz living in the same house with her after 2 months.... but we'll have to see... anyways... what else is new, friday my g/f slept over, we didnt do much, I took my mom into work, cuz the weather was bad, and her car cant handle it, and I got free lunch out of it, then i came home, and shoveled the snow in the driveway... the snow weighed like 10times more than normally cuz all the rain that fell was turning it into slush... it sucked, yesterday was a mess, but it was good in a sense cuz it got a lot of the salt off of my car... that was nice at least lol, today its supposed to be in the fourties, so the weathers getting a lil warmer, ohhh how i cant wait until spring!!! then this friday is my birthday! YAY!!!! im so happy! lol... I cant wait I'm gonna get a lil tipsy, but not too much, I got work the next day... ohhh yeah I almost forgot to mention, thursday I got an email from an old co-worker at Raymour, he was asking me how I was doing this and that, and asked me if i could look at his computer, I told him yeah, and we'll set something up for tuesday after work... so that'll be a lil extra BEER Money! lol today is just dragging on... I really havent been on aol lately, been busy with SOCOM 2... lol, trying to find some members for my team... lol hrmm what else is new, ahh I havent Talked to Brynne, since like 2 weeks ago... I'm slowly but surely getting over her... it hurts though still, I guess one of us will realize one day we made a mistake... im getting over it slowwwly though. There still really isnt a day that goes by that i dont think about her though... I really miss her as hard as I try and be mad at her I cant, shes still the most perfect thing in my heart... It's not the first time ive been hurt though... so whattaya gonna do... gotta take the good with the bad, and pray for the best... Ohhh the things I dont tell anyone  are what makes all the difference, I think if I get Tatt'd today, it will be a nice release, to release all that pain it will feel like a load lifting off of me, I guess thats my reasons behind the cutting incidents when I was in HS... im far over it, but still i understand myself more... I really should stop by my old HS and see Mr. Hanrahan, Mr. Hanrahan was the man who really pulled me up from my lowest points, and he's honestly the only one I ever really was able to talk to, I honestly think if he wasnt here I would have ended my life a long time ago, I owe him a lot, hes a true mentor, and friend... I still stop by and see him every now and again, to touch base, and just chat, he's so nice, he's always got some insightful things to say, maybe this week I'll stop by if im not too busy! =) well... I think I should get going, I'll write more later if there isn't too much to day Adios!
        
            MatT®

So, Today i got woken up around 6:40 from Eric Papa, at work... he was like "Dude, wake up u got 15 minutes to gather ur senses, I got you a cup of coffee to help u get up" So, he sets the cup of coffee on the table in the barely lit conference room... and all I can say is... Dude, you're a lifesaver!!! thank you so much! So I stumbled out of the conference room, I must say, I got literally maybe 20minutes to an hours worth of decent sleep last night, so... I was needless to say very friggen tired, so i stumbled out into the Brightly lit command center, and Eric Peterson looks at me and is just like "did u even sleep" to which i reply "nope" So i sat down into my chair, and i was just trying to keep my eyes open... so i popped open my coffee, to which i realized was black and i was just like "wow, he read my mind" Black coffee was exactly what i needed, so i gulped that down real fast and sat down and then my team came in, and we received our turnover and what not then after about a half hour of sitting there we went down for breakfast. I got an omelet(sp?) it was good, had cheese and onions and peppers and tomatoes and stuff in it, it was great, and it came with a cup of coffee and toast for like 3 bucks, so i was like u cant beat that, so i went back upstairs and started my day, we began to get slammed on all kinds of big serious issues, that i was getting pushed over to me, so i was like already exhausted from that, plus i was just so yucky, i needed a shower so it was putting me in a rather bad mood but what can i say... So, then lunch time came and went, that was good, cuz we were getting on the otherside of that clock, almost 3:30... It was warmer than usual today, it was quite nice... it was like in the 40s today it was nice... so finally 3:00pm rolled around... and it was home stretch, i knew by then i was just getting a lil tired and agitated, so before i knew it, it was 3:30 and we were out the door... Ahhh time to go home... I'm lovin it... so I headed home, and took a shower, a badly needed shower too... lol, i showered and cleaned up nice, and went to my girl's house, and we went to wendy's and got some food, I got chili, she got a chicken sandwhich, then, we went home, and I just passed out on her floor... I just actually got home, around 11:00pm... and have been upstairs playin SOCOM 2... Ohh yeah and my Linux Lanyards came...  YAY!! =) They're nice my brother found em at the front door, as he came in from work... so I was happy they finally came... hrmmm what else happened today... not too much, the day was kind of a blur... ok... enough of my day... just a few thoughts...

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 I was reading the paper today, and read about that 11yr Old girl in Fl. who got kidnapped, thats horrible, I really hope they find the poor girl, and give the bastard who grabbed her the Death Penalty... Some people in this world are really really messed up... what ever happened to normal people, I mean granted im not the most normal individual in the world, but Honestly, im not going to go out and grab some lil kid... some people just Piss me off, and then this whole Janet Jackson, crap, what a moron, jeez, shes trying to keep up with michael i think... ughhh the lows some people go to, just to make a buck... ohh well, just more crap for the masses to see on TV... anyways... theres like 8 days til my Birthday...  woo hoo!!! lolol well... I think im going to get going now... I am going to get some sleep... i am a lil bit tired... Good night Adios peace love and happiness to all...

MaTt®

OK, So I am sleeping here tonight... I am already rediculously tired... i have been here a total of 16hrs and counting and i have to be here again at 07:00... so i am going to find a hole and curl up in a ball and sleep... I'm so tired, ok, so anyways Me and Tom, we went to Starbucks, there were some lil cuties there, Tom's cool, hes hilarious, sometimes i think im gonna crash my car, cuz he makes me laugh so hard lolol, anyways ya so starbucks was good, first time i went to the starbucks, its in PK right next to the plant, and it says inside, Welcome IBM Poughkeepsie, I think that was cool... a lil recognition for us hehehe! lol well im outta here, just wanted to blog the last 20 minutes of my day Im Out! PeeCe!
   MAtt®