Well My Birthday is here last night, I went out at 12:00am, and hit up walmart... I grabbed a 6 pack of beer and headed to the checkout counter, and the lady looked at me and was like "u got ID" and I pleasantly responded Yep! She kinda looked at me funny, and just gave me my beer, I headed home, and my and my bro popped back a couple, it was fun... then I passed out... I was so tired last night it was funny... Anyways, Today, the day was pretty basic, I went to the Gym with my Bro, and we killed ourselves I benched a lot more than I thought I could, so that made me happy... anyways, we went to dinner tonight, and I went to the bar, with my Dad, he grabbed a beer and so did I, The guy kinda loooked at my liscence a lil funny, ohh yeah... I finally got my new liscence today, I was awfully happy about that... I look funny in the picture, but ohh well... At least it doesnt say "Under 21" anymore... hahha... So anyways, while driving around to find a parking spot at the restaurant My brother runs up to me, and says "Happy Birthday, and hands me a 1 Litre Bottle of "HPNOTIQ", I was like holy cow, how did u get this?? and he was like I just did... lol so Me and my girlfriend took a LIL sip in the car to give it a taste, its good... I dont know how my brother got it, he's only 17 but he did... hes a lunatic... So anyways, that was really nice of him, he said it was awfully expensive, but it was madd nice of him... LoL!! anyways that was awsome, It's in my room right now, sitting there, I also brought the bottle of EVERCLEAR in. Thats hidden, I dont want anyone getting their hands on it, lol, anyways... what else is new... Back to work tommarow, but I dont mind, It's saturday and slow, so needless to say my birthday was gr8! I had an awsome time and I'm very happy!!! I wish Brynne, had acknowledged it was my birthday, but She hasnt. I dont think she even wants to talk to me, I'm not going to mention how much it eats me up inside, but It does...  Anyways what else is new... ohh yeah my dad learned about my new Tat! lol... He didnt care about... hes funny. My Linux Cap showed up today, I'm happy about that. My girlfriends mom gave me this awsome spongebob shirt, It's really cute, I will wear it this week sometime... lol... So today was really a good day, MY DAY... lol out of 365 days a year I had a good day... I got paid today, I got my New Liscence today, I got My linux cap today, I got some nice presents today... So it was a good day... Im lovin it, tommarows Valentines day, Now I give presents, lol!! well ya know what... I should really get going... It is going to be tough to wake up in the morning with the liquor in my blood... now i gotta find a lil jaegermeister then i will be set!! Well I gotta run, its been A great day! Ill write more tommarow when i get to work until then Adieu!

Okay, So My Illegalness ends in less than 24 hours, then I can legally Drink!! YAY and I'm 21 too which makes me another year older, now I guess I'm a true adult... anyway So, I guess i shall delve into my day... here goes... Today was Hectic, work was crazy cuz not only did we continually get slammed with stupid issues all day, the BIG BOSS Came in today, so we were all sort of on our toes for a good 2 hours... I didnt even wanna go to lunch for fear he may say I was gone too long (Not that hes a jerk or anything, hes actually quite nice once u talk to him, its just I get a lil uptight around authority figures) anyways... So work was crazy, we finally ate lunch... once he left lol, then before I could say "Is it 3:30 yet?" it was 3:30... So now it's my friday whoohoo lol... So I went to my girlfriends house last night/this night, and we basically slept all day... it was nice and relaxing, Then I headed home I stopped at the gas station for a soda, and then Got home...  I ran upstairs and popped on SOCOM... I've been playing since i got in... and that was at like 10:20pm... now it is... 03:00am so It's been a lot of time... lol... So anyways... remember how i mentioned i was wondering where my liscence was... well i called the DMV, and they said cuz its my 21st birthday they mail it out the day before cuz the drinking laws and stuff... So thats cool, as long as its here... hrmm, so what else is new... I did some valentines day shopping yesterday... and got more to do either tommarow or friday... I would like to get my g/f some jewlery, but its just so expensive and im trying to save just a lil bit... but her b-day will be here in a couple months so we will see... My Tattoo is healing nicely, its been itching a lil bit... but ill live... ohhh yeah my buddy at worked hooked my up with a fifth of that everclear The Grain alcohol, hes like "smell it" it smells like rubbing alcohol, i smelled it and almost got high just smelling it, its 190 PROOF!! anyways yeah so that was nice of him to hook me up like that, It's in my trunk i dont know when i will pop that open...lol anyways... So I've been thinking how nice it is, that Brynne musta forgotten all about me... I mean hell even one of my old friends who i havent talked to in forever emailed me and said happy birthday, Brynne hasnt even sent me an email, or an IM for that matter, I'm really beginning to think less and less of her, oh well i guess when someones whipped in a relationship they're whipped... Whatever... So anyways my folks sorta found a house, and now if they end up liking it, like they hope they do, they may put a binder on it, and that will mean my ass is out the door in june... which i dont really want that to happen but ughhh... thats life... I got another Job offer today, but its for old stuff that I used to do at IBM and its a lot less money so im like screw that... I'm kinda out of it, i think im beginning to get overtired and I need to get some sleep but i dont know... I cant wait til my b-day comes... lol i know ive said that enough, I just think its gonna be fun to maybe go to the bar and do the bar scene for a lil bit maybe meet a few people or something ya know... get out and socialize a lil bit more... i dunno... Well... I think its time for me to hit the sac, i got to make some phone calls in the morning so i need to be up for that, good night/morning
   MAtt®

Well today's monday, just another manic monday... what a weird day its been, I woke up today so tired, but I got moving pretty fast got here to work, and got slammed with a million things the minute I walked in, however that's typical of a monday. So I got those issues put behind me, and then I had to get down on my hands and knees and run cable, oh joy, I got absolutely disgusting... the floors arent the cleanest here, so I took care of that... and by then it was lunch time, Lunch time came and gone and I'm still here... My tattoo seems to be healing beautifully... It's getting all like ugly now... and before I know it it should be looking great, like when he first did it... I can't wait... so anyways what else is new ahh yeah 4 more days til my birthday!!! wHOO Hoo!! I can't wait, my buddy's getting me a bottle of everclear (grain alcohol) for my birthday... lol, hopefully I don't die from it! I can drink tequila but not that... lol I'll try a lil lol! (evil grin...) So anyways, what else is new, nothing really its basically just been the same things I've been experiencing the past few weeks/days that really hasnt changed, hopefully soon, maybe if I start hitting a few bars with some friends, I'll meet some interesting people and have a lil more fun... theres so much on my mind, I really wanna buy this motorcycle but my rents keep talk of moving and if that happens my chances of a bike are going down cuz I will need to afford a place... plus my girl keeps nagging me about it and I'm just ready to explode when she goes and starts rambling... when she starts she doesnt shut up and granted I love the girl but I just wanna drive to the nearest donut shop and stuff a donut in her face when she starts... she's quiet when shes enjoying a donut or eating something lol... I love her though... its just sometimes I dont know how much more I can deal with... ahhh whatever, anyways theres not much to write about today, just a plain day, its a lil warmer than yesterday (40's) so hopefully it will be getting warmer ahhh tommorow should be a good day maybe I'll have more to write, until then, I'm getting outt of here... talk to u later
   MaTt®

So, I'm doing an addition to my Blog, why u ask, I have some more to write about, well I came home quick after work, and got changed and on my way out I saw a car stalled on the road, and someone pushing it, and the car looked an awful lot like my brothers, so I looked at the liscence plate and sure enough it was his, so I pulled over and ran up and asked him what happened, he said his car just died in the street, so I was like shit, alright let me help u out... I Gave him a hand pushing it to the side of the road, and popped the hood, everything looked ok under the hood as in battery and what not, so I popped behind the wheel and tried starting it... it kept trying to turn over but didnt catch so finally I gave it one more shot and Boom it started whoo hoo... so he took it to my moms job and apparently it did it again but luckily he was able to get it started again... Anywayz... Me and My girlfriend decide to go out that evening, and We're sitting there eating dinner and all of a sudden she gets a call on her Cell, its my mom, she needed to talk to me, So I grab the phone and she says how she took my laptop to work with her today to look over some stuff during lunch and seemed to have screwed it up with the network connections, So i was a lil pissed but I got over it after sorta yelling at her (which i felt kinda bad about afterwords) and I said I would fix it when I got home... SO i fixed it, and popped online, Guess who sends me a happy birthday email!?? Shannon, My long lost ex-girlfriend whose out in the army and hasnt been heard from, in at least 6 months... Shannons all married and shit now, and shes got the kid on the way, Wow, its amazing how times change, but It was so nice to see an email from her, it was like a real nice birthday present... I was so happy to finally see some sort of "hello" from her... Made me really happy, made my day actually!... So anyways, what else, oh yeah so my mom came down stairs to see if i fixed the issue with the computer, and as she was walking upstairs I like motioned for her to come over, and I was like "I went to the tatttoo shop..." and she was like "did u get it done" and I was like yup... so I showed her, and she was like "wow why so big?? lol" and i was just like it aint that big... but i guess it might be... lolol but she took it like a trooper and got over it... and then she started asking me about moving out this and that, and I guess I'm ready to do it, it's just gonna be a long road... lol... well anyways... now its 11:30pmEST and I'm tired, I got home a lot later than planned tonight, so now I gotta hit the SAC... No SOCOM Tonight, but tommarow night It's on... So Lock and Load... and be prepared!! LoL I gotta Bounce Ohhh What a beautiful night... ohh ohh ohh one more thing, I got a nice birthday card from my Grandparents with a lil spending money in it, that was well appreciated... I will call em tommarow to thank em =) I like money!!! YAY!!! Few more days to go.... 21 is slowly approaching!!! until tommarow Adieu and Boa Noite (sp?)

   MaTT®

Coffee is good. It's just the thing to get me moving in the morning... So where to begin, well yesterday as u know, I said I was going to the tattoo shop, well, after getting lost 3 times in the middle of Kingston (home of Coheed and Cambria) We found wall street and the tattoo shop... So I pulled over and walked into the shop, we were greeted by Brian aka Smitty (who was my artist) I showed him my intentions, and asked him what it was all going to cost, I wanted to get my back touched up and add a glow around it, and he said, "your back is scarred who did this tat" so I told him, who, and what shop, and he was like hes brutal, hes such an ass, and hes got an ego, i totally agreed with him, and he went and got me a price on the tat... to do all the work, was going to be 160... so i was like ohh ok... ( a little more than we bargained on) so after some thinking I said screw the back, what will that cost me, to do just the hatchet man, he told me 140, that was reasonable, so... he rang me up, and I had to use the bathroom (I was drinkin gatorade like a feind, cuz I was nervous, dont ask why, I just was! LoL) So I headed to the Bathroom, and walked out and my artist was sitting at his booth, and he told me I could take a seat, I sat down, and he shaved the spot where I was getting the work done (inside of the calf muscle) then he did the template transfer thing, I checked to see that it was good, and he began, I was so nervous, it had been a long time since I had been tattoo'd (over a year) and he put the needle to my skin, and started "inkin me up" lol... So, He went through with it, and every now and again a couple of the other artists customers came along, and we're looking and some of the artists friends took a look and I got some complements on it, he did an awomse job, its all black but has a light blue glow/outline around it, it looks SICK! as for pain on a level of 1-10 1 being least 10 being most... I'd give it a 3 I was laughing cuz it tickled, lol... now it just feels raw, and it's going through its usual healing phases and what not. I cant wait til it is all healed up it's going to look so sick! I cant wait! So,  lets see what else happened, ahh after that we headed home, and we stopped at bugaboo creek to eat, however it was a 50 minute wait for a 2 person party, so I was like screw that... so we went to ruby tuesdays in fishkill, and then we went back to her house, and fell asleep... I slept there til like 3:30, and then headed home... I got home and t bed around 4:00am... I slept for a good 2 hours more and then got up and headed to work... My leg just feels like I got road rash or something... it will be healed in a couple weeks fully... So anyways what else is new, today has been busy and slow, I actually started writing this Blog around 10:20 and here it is 11:45am so theres been a lot of bumps in the road. lol... Hopefully tonight I will get a lil SOCOM Action in, and have some fun with that, My folks havent seen my tat yet, nor do they know i've gotten it yet... lololol! they're ok with it I think, I mean hell I'm 21 years old for god sakes I can do what I want I was 19 when i got my first one so, I'm pretty much a lot older so... I'm still kinda torn as to whether or not I'm going to be able to afford this motorcycle or not with the possibility of moving in the near future... It's gonna be weird knowing everyones far away, I mean my brother's gonna be in the air force and my folks in Florida and me stuck here so it will be weird but we'll see... I guess... takin 1 day at a time for now...,, We'll see what happens life works in funny ways... so theres like 5 days til my B-day I cant wait!! My new Liscence should be in the mail any day now... I hope it arrives soon, I'm kinda nervous as to where it is... It's been well over 2 weeks now since I applied for it and everything ahh well no one got he mail yesterday so it should be here by monday/tuesday... so anyways... Works almost over another 3 hours or so then I'm heading home... Tuesday I may have my hands full with going to Newburgh to check out that computer, but besides that, and friday its gonna be a boring week... I cant wait til friday, PARTY TIME I might hit the club up sat night. just to pick up some chicks me and tom are gonna go out like in 2 weeks to this bar and pick up some cute asian girls (I got a thing for asian girls I dont know why, they are just hella cute! lol) well... I think I've rambled enought today, I'm outtie, Peace everyone MAKE A COMMENT TAG up the Tag Board!!! Holla @ ur Boy!

      MaTt®

Ahhh Well, its Saturday, and guess what, I'm back at work!! yay! (sarcasm) If I had it my way I'd be playing PS2 or sleeping right now, but oh well... it's another day and theres less than a week left until my birthday YAY!!!! so anyways, my girlfriend has agreed, as my b-day gift to pay for me to get a tattoo... so... We're going to the shop today, to possibly get it done, I gotta see if they have an artist available to do the work, and how much its going to cost and all... so I'm psyched, I'm getting the Psychopathic Records hatchet man, on the inside of my right leg, like on the calf area, but the left side of the right leg, if that makes sense... and im getting the star on my back touched up and getting a glow around it... It's gonna be dope, we're going to Ink Inc. in poughkeepsie... they are awsome, they did some of my g/f's tatts so I trust em... lol lol... they do great work.... so anyways what else is new, ohh yeah so thursday was nice I had the day off, and I went out to dinner with my parents, and my g/f and My parents are slowly but surely beginning the moving process, they are looking into having a house built and stuff, they are planning to move to Florida, I wish I could go but I have my g/f and I have a good job now so that means my options are left to staying here, unless we break up... so that means me moving, to an apartment... I guess in a way it will be good... if I move to an apartment, it will mean closure for me in certain senses. I can really begin to cut off all ties with the "Friends" who have done the same to me... so when they come to look for me, when they need me, I will do what they did to me, (not be there for them, when they need me the most) it's harsh but thats life... so, I'm going to begin looking for a new place to go, my rents already told me I can have a lot of the furniture because when they move they are buying new stuff, they're lucky, nice move to florida, nice house with a pool, and warm sunshine, while im stuck up here, in frozen hell! I hope once my g/f gets done with school she will sense up and maybe want to move away from this shit, but who knows... shes like "oh I cant leave my mom, she doesnt have my father since he walked out on us" but shes sitting there telling me to practically leave my parents flat out... I dont get her sometimes... hypocrit... In the long run, i dont know if we will make it... I think I will go nutz living in the same house with her after 2 months.... but we'll have to see... anyways... what else is new, friday my g/f slept over, we didnt do much, I took my mom into work, cuz the weather was bad, and her car cant handle it, and I got free lunch out of it, then i came home, and shoveled the snow in the driveway... the snow weighed like 10times more than normally cuz all the rain that fell was turning it into slush... it sucked, yesterday was a mess, but it was good in a sense cuz it got a lot of the salt off of my car... that was nice at least lol, today its supposed to be in the fourties, so the weathers getting a lil warmer, ohhh how i cant wait until spring!!! then this friday is my birthday! YAY!!!! im so happy! lol... I cant wait I'm gonna get a lil tipsy, but not too much, I got work the next day... ohhh yeah I almost forgot to mention, thursday I got an email from an old co-worker at Raymour, he was asking me how I was doing this and that, and asked me if i could look at his computer, I told him yeah, and we'll set something up for tuesday after work... so that'll be a lil extra BEER Money! lol today is just dragging on... I really havent been on aol lately, been busy with SOCOM 2... lol, trying to find some members for my team... lol hrmm what else is new, ahh I havent Talked to Brynne, since like 2 weeks ago... I'm slowly but surely getting over her... it hurts though still, I guess one of us will realize one day we made a mistake... im getting over it slowwwly though. There still really isnt a day that goes by that i dont think about her though... I really miss her as hard as I try and be mad at her I cant, shes still the most perfect thing in my heart... It's not the first time ive been hurt though... so whattaya gonna do... gotta take the good with the bad, and pray for the best... Ohhh the things I dont tell anyone  are what makes all the difference, I think if I get Tatt'd today, it will be a nice release, to release all that pain it will feel like a load lifting off of me, I guess thats my reasons behind the cutting incidents when I was in HS... im far over it, but still i understand myself more... I really should stop by my old HS and see Mr. Hanrahan, Mr. Hanrahan was the man who really pulled me up from my lowest points, and he's honestly the only one I ever really was able to talk to, I honestly think if he wasnt here I would have ended my life a long time ago, I owe him a lot, hes a true mentor, and friend... I still stop by and see him every now and again, to touch base, and just chat, he's so nice, he's always got some insightful things to say, maybe this week I'll stop by if im not too busy! =) well... I think I should get going, I'll write more later if there isn't too much to day Adios!
        
            MatT®

So, Today i got woken up around 6:40 from Eric Papa, at work... he was like "Dude, wake up u got 15 minutes to gather ur senses, I got you a cup of coffee to help u get up" So, he sets the cup of coffee on the table in the barely lit conference room... and all I can say is... Dude, you're a lifesaver!!! thank you so much! So I stumbled out of the conference room, I must say, I got literally maybe 20minutes to an hours worth of decent sleep last night, so... I was needless to say very friggen tired, so i stumbled out into the Brightly lit command center, and Eric Peterson looks at me and is just like "did u even sleep" to which i reply "nope" So i sat down into my chair, and i was just trying to keep my eyes open... so i popped open my coffee, to which i realized was black and i was just like "wow, he read my mind" Black coffee was exactly what i needed, so i gulped that down real fast and sat down and then my team came in, and we received our turnover and what not then after about a half hour of sitting there we went down for breakfast. I got an omelet(sp?) it was good, had cheese and onions and peppers and tomatoes and stuff in it, it was great, and it came with a cup of coffee and toast for like 3 bucks, so i was like u cant beat that, so i went back upstairs and started my day, we began to get slammed on all kinds of big serious issues, that i was getting pushed over to me, so i was like already exhausted from that, plus i was just so yucky, i needed a shower so it was putting me in a rather bad mood but what can i say... So, then lunch time came and went, that was good, cuz we were getting on the otherside of that clock, almost 3:30... It was warmer than usual today, it was quite nice... it was like in the 40s today it was nice... so finally 3:00pm rolled around... and it was home stretch, i knew by then i was just getting a lil tired and agitated, so before i knew it, it was 3:30 and we were out the door... Ahhh time to go home... I'm lovin it... so I headed home, and took a shower, a badly needed shower too... lol, i showered and cleaned up nice, and went to my girl's house, and we went to wendy's and got some food, I got chili, she got a chicken sandwhich, then, we went home, and I just passed out on her floor... I just actually got home, around 11:00pm... and have been upstairs playin SOCOM 2... Ohh yeah and my Linux Lanyards came...  YAY!! =) They're nice my brother found em at the front door, as he came in from work... so I was happy they finally came... hrmmm what else happened today... not too much, the day was kind of a blur... ok... enough of my day... just a few thoughts...

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 I was reading the paper today, and read about that 11yr Old girl in Fl. who got kidnapped, thats horrible, I really hope they find the poor girl, and give the bastard who grabbed her the Death Penalty... Some people in this world are really really messed up... what ever happened to normal people, I mean granted im not the most normal individual in the world, but Honestly, im not going to go out and grab some lil kid... some people just Piss me off, and then this whole Janet Jackson, crap, what a moron, jeez, shes trying to keep up with michael i think... ughhh the lows some people go to, just to make a buck... ohh well, just more crap for the masses to see on TV... anyways... theres like 8 days til my Birthday...  woo hoo!!! lolol well... I think im going to get going now... I am going to get some sleep... i am a lil bit tired... Good night Adios peace love and happiness to all...

MaTt®

OK, So I am sleeping here tonight... I am already rediculously tired... i have been here a total of 16hrs and counting and i have to be here again at 07:00... so i am going to find a hole and curl up in a ball and sleep... I'm so tired, ok, so anyways Me and Tom, we went to Starbucks, there were some lil cuties there, Tom's cool, hes hilarious, sometimes i think im gonna crash my car, cuz he makes me laugh so hard lolol, anyways ya so starbucks was good, first time i went to the starbucks, its in PK right next to the plant, and it says inside, Welcome IBM Poughkeepsie, I think that was cool... a lil recognition for us hehehe! lol well im outta here, just wanted to blog the last 20 minutes of my day Im Out! PeeCe!
   MAtt®

Today's tuesday, its cold, and snowy, again... the days seem to be getting colder, will spring ever come... I go out to my car and my hands get numb in the 30 seconds im outside, Like ive said before all it does is fricken snow... lalala... anyways, I'm working a double shift today, im going to be hurting in the morning thats for sure...  ohh well i did it last week too, its a routine thing for me.... i should just try and work the whole thing and then work again in the morning, haha... tommorows my friday (the day before my two days off) so it will be nice... anyways what else is new... work was slow, today, spent a lot of time just sittin here waiting, and thinking and waiting, this is nice when it is dead here, it gives me a lot of time to think... think about the things i never think about anymore... think about the past, the present, the future... Think about how things coulda been if things were done differently... ohhh how i wish i could turn back the hands of time... sometimes at least... but life is funny in that way.... fate happens in the weirdest ways, some times some things are meant to be sometimes fate just puts you on hold... i try not to give up on certain possibilities but sometimes things look so bleek i try and keep hope for the things i want so much for myself, but like i said fate will guide me in whatever direction it has for me.... ohhhhhhh.... so anyways here i sit at work, its not bad here, the guys on 2nd shift are cool... were getting ready to order some food im starving!! the snow continues to fall, ahh at least im getting paid to hang out with cool people in a sense, and i dont have to shovel snow, lolol.... it's good to work OT... nice amount of extra dough next week which will be very nice... the springs coming... I know this cuz my b-day is almost here, plus... it gets lighter earlier in the day... and darker later WHOO HOO!! I cant wait til spring time... no more snow, no more salt, no more ice, or anything.... just warmth me and my rocket, whoo yeah! so anyways today i went out for lunch and i was listening to my new rufio CD when all of a sudden i said, i want to hear "Road to Recovery" on the old Rufio CD... So i popped it in. and began listening to it... MAN that is prolly the best song i have ever heard... THose guys Kick so much ASS its unreal i will post the lyrics below when im done writing my book... LoL... So today my girlfriend IM's me while im at work, and shes like bitchin about her computer not working, so of course not only does she vent to me, I've gotta walk her through the issue... so, She's sitting there and she literally wont SHUT UP!!! so finally she gets done and i tell her how to resolve her little problem, and shes like oh... thats not so bad... now is it... lolol!! some people get so crazy when it comes to a computer but the truth is, theres nothing to worry about... most issues are pretty easy to be resolved... ahhh i dont know.... yay we're ordering food yay for food food is good... im a tired lil Geek.... ooohh my LINUX Lanyards are coming... they should be here in a few days i cant wait whoo hoo!!! yayayayay!lol im, a lunatic... lol So Chrystal's leaving me for NYC... shes leaving =( but she'll be back in march for the concert yyayayayyay! lol lolol ::Looks over at the clock... 17:00...:: 5 1/2 more hours to go...  now its raining out... next it will be snowing, then raining... typical for NY i guess... fricken weather sucks... so anyways... I think either this weekend or next weekend im getting tattood again... I want a saying on my back to go with my Star but i cant think of a good saying... im crazy...  i know... lol... So the kid next to me i work with is hooking me up with a CD wityh a shit load of bands im psyched! whoo hooo.... lol. ok so yea... I just ate, i feel like a blimp but im full, so its ok i guess... ill be set for the night and i will sleep through the evening here, only to wake up here, to have to come back here... in case u forgot... here is work... lol!!! whattaya gonna do.... do they consider this to be dedication?? i hope so they better not ever say, u dont throw ur hat into the mix ever, cuz ill tell em where to shove it real fast hahaha... nahh everyones good people here... I just get all crazy with all this over time... anyways i think about to get off of here and go... sit and watch myself get fat or something lol... im so bored... BTW heres the Lyrics, Like em, or FORGET U!



RUFIO - Road to Recovery

He never thought someone would come along, and show him the feelings he's always dreamed of. She didn't plan on falling in love, upset the balance she's wanted so long. This road to recovery, has taken all i have. It seems hard as i try, to succumb once again, again. Well he lost control and gave up his heart, to follow the girl that he's always dreamed of. She pulled away so scared of a love, that might have been more than she had planned on. This road to recovery, has taken all i have. It seems hard as i try, to succumb once again, again. Well love's a bitch, relationships end. What happens now when that person's gone? The one who you thought you could always count on. You fall in love and they fall out. Love is a bitch, all relationships end. How do i let go of a love that meant so much to me? How do i go on when you're part of me? I'm dying inside each time i see you. Don't lose sight of me cuz you're all I see. You're still all I see. This road to recovery has taken all I have. This road to recovery has taken all I have, taken all I have.

Today's just another day, nothing really special to talk about so far, nothing life changing or interesting either, the big thing around the office is obviously the superbowl, whoo hoo patriots won (like i could care less.) besides that the day seems to be going by awfully slow, I'm hungry, and tired, but the rock station is on so thats keeping me awake lol! we've been a lil busy cuz the mydoom virus is running rampant through peoples computers through out the US, so its creating mail backlog on a lot of the servers, so we've been busy but its seemed to have quieted down around lunch time at least for now... So anyways, I'm looking for people to join my Clan on Socom NS2 anyone?? lol... I found a new song i Like today... Trapt-Echo i think is the name of the song... i heard it on WRRV im likin it... plus with my usual plethora of CD's in my car i just may have to add anotherone to the bunch... lol... plus chrystal will be hookin me up, with some new stuff, which is what i have to do also, shes goin away soon, but ill see her again in March for MEST! =) so that will be fun... there are officially 11 days left til my B-day, and counting then its party time for the big 2-1 !! lol cant wait, i hope i get some money cuz i need some more... lolol well im outta here, got work to get done. Laterz
      Matt

So I changed my name, Snooping Eyez could blow my cover, and im trying to remain Covert hehe... SO anyways, not much is new other than the name change U-phorik is now dead, at least on this Blog... so anyways Whats new, Nothing really we are expecting more snow in a couple days, oh I cant wait... (sarcasm) anyways, So works going well im here now, nothing much to report the usual stuff, now i gotta transfer this name to the people i care, to see this, i gotta finish working, ill be back later
   matt